party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as  i 
 start  to unzip my pants,  she steps out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien]  who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what i  don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times  per second -  they ask me:  "when 
 you  said  the world egg  was your ideal 
 body  type, did  you mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but i can  act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter  and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom