§§¨¨§¨§¨§¨                                          ¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨§
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§¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨                                          ¨§¨§¨¨§§§¨
§§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨                                          ¨§§§§¨§¨¨§
¨¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨                                          ¨§¨¨¨§§§¨§
§¨¨§§§¨§¨¨         §;»»»»»,,,¨  ¨,,,»»»»»;§         ¨§§¨¨§¨¨§§
¨§¨§¨¨§§§¨         §                      §         ¨§¨§¨§§¨§¨
¨§§§§¨§¨¨§         § MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF §         §§§§§§¨§§§
§§¨¨¨§§§¨§         §                      §         ¨¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨
§¨§¨¨§¨¨§§         §;»»»»»,,,¨  ¨,,,»»»»»;§         ¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨§¨
§§§§¨§§¨§¨                                          ¨¨¨¨¨¨§§§§
¨¨¨¨§§¨§§§                                          §¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨§¨§§¨¨ I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING  ¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨¨¨§§§¨§¨ CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND  ¨§§¨¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨¨§¨¨§§§  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   §§¨§¨¨§§§§
§¨¨¨§§¨§¨¨   BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A    ¨¨§§§¨§¨¨¨
§§¨¨§¨§§§¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   §¨§¨¨§§§¨¨
§¨§¨§§§¨¨§   THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST  §§§§¨§¨¨§¨
§§§§§¨¨§¨§ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH  ¨¨¨¨§§§¨§§
¨¨¨¨¨§¨§§§                THE TREES.                §¨¨¨§¨¨§§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨                                          ¨§¨¨§§¨§¨§
§¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨    MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE   §§§¨§¨§§§§
¨§¨¨¨§§¨§§    ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T   ¨¨¨§§§§¨¨¨
¨§§¨¨§¨§§¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     ¨¨¨§¨¨¨§¨¨
¨§¨§¨§§§¨§ CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE  ¨¨¨§§¨¨§§¨
¨§§§§§¨¨§§   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨§
§§¨¨¨¨§¨§¨  US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER   §¨¨§§§§§§§
¨¨§¨¨¨§§§§  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  ¨§¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨§§¨¨§¨¨¨   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨§§§§¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨¨   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  ¨§¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨
¨¨§§§§§¨§¨            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            §§§¨¨§§¨¨¨
¨¨§¨¨¨¨§§§                                          §¨¨§¨§¨§¨¨
¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨   THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES  §§¨§§§§§§¨
¨¨§¨§¨¨§§¨   THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER  ¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§
§¨§§§§¨§¨§ CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION.  ¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨§
¨§§¨¨¨§§§§      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     §¨§§§§¨¨¨§
§§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF ¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨§
¨¨§§§¨§§¨¨  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  §§¨§¨¨§§¨§
§¨§¨¨§§¨§¨  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  §¨§§§¨§¨§§
¨§§§¨§¨§§§  AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE ¨§§¨¨§§§§¨
¨§¨¨§§§§¨¨                TELEVISION.               §§¨§¨§¨¨¨§
§§§¨§¨¨¨§¨                                          §¨§§§§§¨¨§
¨¨¨§§§¨¨§§ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT  ¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨§
§¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  §§¨§¨¨¨§§§
¨§¨§§¨§§§§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   §¨§§§¨¨§¨¨
¨§§§¨§§¨¨¨                                          §§§¨¨§¨§§¨
¨§¨¨§§¨§¨¨    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨¨¨§¨§§§¨§
§§§¨§¨§§§¨  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  ¨¨¨§§§¨¨§§
¨¨¨§§§§¨¨§   THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,  §¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨§¨¨¨§¨§   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   ¨§¨§§¨§§§§
§¨¨§§¨¨§§§                 SO MUCH.                 §§§§¨§§¨¨¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨¨                                          ¨¨¨¨§§¨§¨¨
§¨§§§§§§§¨                                          ¨¨¨¨§¨§§§¨
§§§¨¨¨¨¨¨§             »»»»»,,¨ ¨,,»»»»»            §¨¨¨§§§¨¨§
¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨§                                          §§¨¨§¨¨§¨§
§¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§                                          ¨¨§¨§§¨§§§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨¨§  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  §¨§§§¨§§¨¨
¨§§§§§§¨¨§    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §§§¨¨§§¨§¨
¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨§ EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER.  §¨¨§¨§¨§§§
§§§¨¨¨¨§§§  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  §§¨§§§§§¨¨
§¨¨§¨¨¨§¨¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨
§§¨§§¨¨§§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§§
¨¨§§¨§¨§¨§     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      §¨§§§§¨¨§¨
¨¨§¨§§§§§§    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    ¨§§¨¨¨§¨§§
§¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     ¨§¨§¨¨§§§¨
§§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨  MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW ¨§§§§¨§¨¨§
¨¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§¨¨¨§§§¨§
§¨¨§§§¨§¨¨             HAD BEEN REAL...             ¨§§¨¨§¨¨§§
¨§¨§¨¨§§§¨                                          ¨§¨§¨§§¨§¨
¨§§§§¨§¨¨§                                          §§§§§§¨§§§
§§¨¨¨§§§¨§             »»»»»,,¨ ¨,,»»»»»            ¨¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨
§¨§¨¨§¨¨§§                                          ¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨§¨
§§§§¨§§¨§¨                                          ¨¨¨¨¨¨§§§§
¨¨¨¨§§¨§§§    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    §¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨§¨§§¨¨  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   ¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨¨¨§§§¨§¨   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   ¨§§¨¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨¨§¨¨§§§   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    §§¨§¨¨§§§§
§¨¨¨§§¨§¨¨   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨¨§§§¨§¨¨¨
§§¨¨§¨§§§¨     WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.    §¨§¨¨§§§¨¨
§¨§¨§§§¨¨§                                          §§§§¨§¨¨§¨
§§§§§¨¨§¨§   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  ¨¨¨¨§§§¨§§
¨¨¨¨¨§¨§§§   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   §¨¨¨§¨¨§§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    ¨§¨¨§§¨§¨§
§¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    §§§¨§¨§§§§
¨§¨¨¨§§¨§§               SOME ON FIRE.              ¨¨¨§§§§¨¨¨
¨§§¨¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨¨¨§¨¨¨§¨¨
¨§¨§¨§§§¨§       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        ¨¨¨§§¨¨§§¨
¨§§§§§¨¨§§                                          ¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨§
§§¨¨¨¨§¨§¨   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   §¨¨§§§§§§§
¨¨§¨¨¨§§§§     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     ¨§¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨§§¨¨§¨¨¨ TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING!  ¨§§§§¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨§¨§¨§§¨¨               SHE WAS HERE!              ¨§¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨
¨¨§§§§§¨§¨                                          §§§¨¨§§¨¨¨
¨¨§¨¨¨¨§§§                                          §¨¨§¨§¨§¨¨
¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨                                          §§¨§§§§§§¨
¨¨§¨§¨¨§§¨                                          ¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§
§¨§§§§¨§¨§                                          ¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨§