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..,~;†$£@#                                          #@£$†;~,..
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....,~;†$£ i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing  £$†;~,....
.....,~;†$  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and $†;~,.....
......,~;†  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   †;~,......
.......,~;   barn. we lived just outside town, a    ;~,.......
........,~   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   ~,........
.........,   the barn was placed so you could just  ,.........
........,~  make out the surrounding fields through ~,........
.......,~;                the trees.                ;~,.......
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.....,~;†$   my car was black and loud, both the    $†;~,.....
....,~;†$£    engine and the way the parts didn't   £$†;~,....
...,~;†$£@     really stick together. i took my     @£$†;~,...
..,~;†$£@#  crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the #@£$†;~,..
.,~;†$£@##   eternal dark that seemed to surround   ##@£$†;~,.
..,~;†$£@#  us. she seemed to cast this veil over   #@£$†;~,..
...,~;†$£@  everything. her black skirt reached to  @£$†;~,...
....,~;†$£   her knees but then somehow also back   £$†;~,....
.....,~;†$  around, enveloping all my memories of   $†;~,.....
......,~;†            our time together.            †;~,......
.......,~;                                          ;~,.......
........,~  there was blood everywhere. sometimes   ~,........
.........,   the blood was her red lipstick or her  ,.........
........,~ checkered shirt. she was on television.  ~,........
.......,~;      we did crime, and we made weird     ;~,.......
......,~;†  structures in the barn, tall pillars of †;~,......
.....,~;†$  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  $†;~,.....
....,~;†$£  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  £$†;~,....
...,~;†$£@  and drink there and she would go in the @£$†;~,...
..,~;†$£@#               television.                #@£$†;~,..
.,~;†$£@##                                          ##@£$†;~,.
..,~;†$£@#  and then the sun came out, and she went #@£$†;~,..
...,~;†$£@  away. everything changed... i yearned,  @£$†;~,...
....,~;†$£   and the world became dull around me.   £$†;~,....
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......,~;†    i stopped doing crime, except when    †;~,......
.......,~;  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  ;~,.......
........,~   they were allright, moulded in place,  ~,........
.........,   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   ,.........
........,~                 so much.                 ~,........
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..,~;†$£@#  i searched for her, but nobody had any  #@£$†;~,..
.,~;†$£@##    memories of her. not so much of me    ##@£$†;~,.
..,~;†$£@# either, from the time we were together.  #@£$†;~,..
...,~;†$£@  my mother said i kept to myself in the  @£$†;~,...
....,~;†$£           barn, or in the car.           £$†;~,....
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......,~;†      sometimes i could still see her     †;~,......
.......,~;    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    ;~,.......
........,~     everything was black then, for a     ~,........
.........,  moment. i remembered her laugh and knew ,.........
........,~   we had done crimes together, that it   ~,........
.......,~;             had been real...             ;~,.......
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..,~;†$£@#                                          #@£$†;~,..
.,~;†$£@##    i died by getting shot in the head    ##@£$†;~,.
..,~;†$£@#   while ramming the fence to a military  #@£$†;~,..
...,~;†$£@   facility. by this time they had been   @£$†;~,...
....,~;†$£   chasing me for days. i lost control    £$†;~,....
.....,~;†$   over the car, crashed it into a rock   $†;~,.....
......,~;†    wall and flew out the windshield.     †;~,......
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........,~  and then i got up, and looked around.   ~,........
.........,   it was dark, where it previously had   ,.........
........,~    been a bright day. around me where    ~,........
.......,~;   dozens of crashed cars, all my car,    ;~,.......
......,~;†               some on fire.              †;~,......
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....,~;†$£       the ground was sticky, red.        £$†;~,....
...,~;†$£@                                          @£$†;~,...
..,~;†$£@#   and then i realized that i knew this   #@£$†;~,..
.,~;†$£@##     darkness. i knew the way the sky     ##@£$†;~,.
..,~;†$£@# touched the ground. this was her doing!  #@£$†;~,..
...,~;†$£@              she was here!               @£$†;~,...
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