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,,,,,,~=\=         =\=====~~~,  ,~~~=====\=         =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~=\         =                      =         \=~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=         = mirage class goth gf =         =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&         =                      =         &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,~=\=&£         =\=====~~~,  ,~~~=====\=         £&=\=~,,,,
,,,~=\=&£@                                          @£&=\=~,,,
,,~=\=&£@#                                          #@£&=\=~,,
,~=\=&£@## i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing  ##@£&=\=~,
,,~=\=&£@#  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and #@£&=\=~,,
,,,~=\=&£@   trusted car, and sometimes my mothers  @£&=\=~,,,
,,,,~=\=&£   barn. we lived just outside town, a    £&=\=~,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=   the barn was placed so you could just  =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~=\  make out the surrounding fields through \=~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=                the trees.                =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&                                          &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,~=\=&£   my car was black and loud, both the    £&=\=~,,,,
,,,~=\=&£@   engine and the way the parts didn't    @£&=\=~,,,
,,~=\=&£@#     really stick together. i took my     #@£&=\=~,,
,~=\=&£@##  crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the ##@£&=\=~,
,,~=\=&£@#   eternal dark that seemed to surround   #@£&=\=~,,
,,,~=\=&£@  us. she seemed to cast this veil over   @£&=\=~,,,
,,,,~=\=&£  everything. her black skirt reached to  £&=\=~,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&   her knees but then somehow also back   &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=   around, enveloping all my memories of  =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~=\            our time together.            \=~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=                                          =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&   there was blood everywhere. sometimes  &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,~=\=&£  the blood was her red lipstick or her   £&=\=~,,,,
,,,~=\=&£@ checkered shirt. she was on television.  @£&=\=~,,,
,,~=\=&£@#     we did crime, and we made weird      #@£&=\=~,,
,~=\=&£@## structures in the barn, tall pillars of  ##@£&=\=~,
,,~=\=&£@#  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  #@£&=\=~,,
,,,~=\=&£@  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  @£&=\=~,,,
,,,,~=\=&£  and drink there and she would go in the £&=\=~,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&                television.               &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=                                          =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~=\ and then the sun came out, and she went  \=~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=  away. everything changed... i yearned,  =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&   and the world became dull around me.   &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,~=\=&£                                          £&=\=~,,,,
,,,~=\=&£@    i stopped doing crime, except when    @£&=\=~,,,
,,~=\=&£@#  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  #@£&=\=~,,
,~=\=&£@##  they were allright, moulded in place,   ##@£&=\=~,
,,~=\=&£@#   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   #@£&=\=~,,
,,,~=\=&£@                 so much.                 @£&=\=~,,,
,,,,~=\=&£                                          £&=\=~,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&                                          &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=            =====~~, ,~~=====             =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~=\                                          \=~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=                                          =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&  i searched for her, but nobody had any  &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,~=\=&£    memories of her. not so much of me    £&=\=~,,,,
,,,~=\=&£@ either, from the time we were together.  @£&=\=~,,,
,,~=\=&£@#  my mother said i kept to myself in the  #@£&=\=~,,
,~=\=&£@##           barn, or in the car.           ##@£&=\=~,
,,~=\=&£@#                                          #@£&=\=~,,
,,,~=\=&£@      sometimes i could still see her     @£&=\=~,,,
,,,,~=\=&£    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    £&=\=~,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&     everything was black then, for a     &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=  moment. i remembered her laugh and knew =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~=\   we had done crimes together, that it   \=~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=             had been real...             =\=~,,,,,,
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,,,,~=\=&£                                          £&=\=~,,,,
,,,~=\=&£@             =====~~, ,~~=====            @£&=\=~,,,
,,~=\=&£@#                                          #@£&=\=~,,
,~=\=&£@##                                          ##@£&=\=~,
,,~=\=&£@#    i died by getting shot in the head    #@£&=\=~,,
,,,~=\=&£@  while ramming the fence to a military   @£&=\=~,,,
,,,,~=\=&£   facility. by this time they had been   £&=\=~,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&   chasing me for days. i lost control    &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=   over the car, crashed it into a rock   =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~=\     wall and flew out the windshield.    \=~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=                                          =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&  and then i got up, and looked around.   &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,~=\=&£   it was dark, where it previously had   £&=\=~,,,,
,,,~=\=&£@    been a bright day. around me where    @£&=\=~,,,
,,~=\=&£@#   dozens of crashed cars, all my car,    #@£&=\=~,,
,~=\=&£@##               some on fire.              ##@£&=\=~,
,,~=\=&£@#                                          #@£&=\=~,,
,,,~=\=&£@        the ground was sticky, red.       @£&=\=~,,,
,,,,~=\=&£                                          £&=\=~,,,,
,,,,,~=\=&   and then i realized that i knew this   &=\=~,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=     darkness. i knew the way the sky     =\=~,,,,,,
,,,,,,,~=\ touched the ground. this was her doing!  \=~,,,,,,,
,,,,,,~=\=               she was here!              =\=~,,,,,,
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