always tears in my eyes  when  using the 
                 machine.                 
                                          
 i don't think  it's  hormonal  overload. 
 there's  no  grief  or joy  as my  water 
 rolls down  my  face.  i notice  nothing 
 until my  chin is wet. wipe it off  with 
 the back of my hand. but i  usually keep 
           crying for a while.            
                                          
 i theorize some  kind  of  resonance  in 
  the neural interface; some saturation   
 signal being tripped? the  connection is 
        imperfect and often induces       
  single-sense hallucinations. acute but  
 hollow  hunger.  sand  grains  under  my 
  fingertips. strange tastes and scents.  
                                          
 and  i  mean,  maybe  it  isn't  to  far 
 fetched  that  something like  that  can 
  cause autonomous reactions? dry mouth.  
    finger spasms. opened tear ducts.