this body is  stressed and  i don't know 
 why!  it seems  too slow for my taste? i 
 try to numb  its will  but it  only gets 
 more  frightened  by its  own existence. 
 at  this  point a  lot of my subconcious 
             is just screams.             
 i  play with the though  of sedating it, 
 but  decide  that   it   will   probably 
     there   is   no    way   out