Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter  Because I 
 Do Not  Know How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think It  Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.