Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time I  Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To  Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.