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.,«*=¤£@##  crimes mostly from or in my beloved and ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*==¤£@#  trusted car, and sometimes my mothers   #@£¤==*«,.
.,«*=¤£@##   barn. we lived just outside town, a    ##@£¤=*«,.
...,**===£   grove at the end of a dirt road, and   £===**,...
.,«*=¤£@##  the barn was placed so you could just   ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤£@##  make out the surrounding fields through ##@£¤=*«,.
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.....,«*¤@    my car was black and loud, both the   @¤*«,.....
.,«*=¤£@##   engine and the way the parts didn't    ##@£¤=*«,.
...««===££     really stick together. i took my     ££===««...
.,«*=¤£@@@ crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the  @@@£¤=*«,.
.....«=£@@   eternal dark that seemed to surround   @@£=«.....
...,,«=¤££   us. she seemed to cast this veil over  ££¤=«,,...
.,«*=¤££@@  everything. her black skirt reached to  @@££¤=*«,.
...,,**¤£@   her knees but then somehow also back   @£¤**,,...
....,**¤¤@   around, enveloping all my memories of  @¤¤**,....
...,«==£££            our time together.            £££==«,...
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.,«*=¤£@##  there was blood everywhere. sometimes   ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤£###   the blood was her red lipstick or her  ###£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤£@## checkered shirt. she was on television.  ##@£¤=*«,.
....«*===£     we did crime, and we made weird      £===*«....
.,«*=¤£@##  structures in the barn, tall pillars of ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤£@##  dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires  ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤£@##  and fairy lights. we would sleep there  ##@£¤=*«,.
...,««*=¤@  and drink there and she would go in the @¤=*««,...
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.,«*=¤£@## and then the sun came out, and she went  ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤££@#  away. everything changed... i yearned,  #@££¤=*«,.
.....««=££   and the world became dull around me.   ££=««.....
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.,«**=¤¤££    i stopped doing crime, except when    ££¤¤=**«,.
.,«*=¤£@##  necessarry. things somehow seemed like  ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤£@##   they were allright, moulded in place,  ##@£¤=*«,.
..,««==££#   and i loathed it ------ i missed her   #££==««,..
.,««*===£#                 so much.                 #£===*««,.
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.,«*=¤£@##  i searched for her, but nobody had any  ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*====££    memories of her. not so much of me    ££====*«,.
....«**¤¤@  either, from the time we were together. @¤¤**«....
.,«*=¤£@##  my mother said i kept to myself in the  ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤£@##           barn, or in the car.           ##@£¤=*«,.
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...,**=££#      sometimes i could still see her     #££=**,...
...,«**=¤@    flashing by on the tv in the barn.    @¤=**«,...
.....,**=£     everything was black then, for a     £=**,.....
.,«*=¤£@## moment. i remembered her laugh and knew  ##@£¤=*«,.
..,««««==£   we had done crimes together, that it   £==««««,..
.,«*=¤£@##             had been real...             ##@£¤=*«,.
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....,«*¤££    i died by getting shot in the head    ££¤*«,....
.,«*=¤£@##  while ramming the fence to a military   ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤£@##   facility. by this time they had been   ##@£¤=*«,.
....,,*¤£@    chasing me for days. i lost control   @£¤*,,....
.,«*=¤£@##   over the car, crashed it into a rock   ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤£@##    wall and flew out the windshield.     ##@£¤=*«,.
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..,«*=¤££@  and then i got up, and looked around.   @££¤=*«,..
......,«=£   it was dark, where it previously had   £=«,......
.,«*=¤£@##    been a bright day. around me where    ##@£¤=*«,.
..,,««=£££    dozens of crashed cars, all my car,   £££=««,,..
......«*¤@              some on fire.               @¤*«......
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.....,*¤£#       the ground was sticky, red.        #£¤*,.....
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.,«*=¤£@##   and then i realized that i knew this   ##@£¤=*«,.
.,«*=¤¤¤@#     darkness. i knew the way the sky     #@¤¤¤=*«,.
...,***¤£@ touched the ground. this was her doing!  @£¤***,...
.,«*=¤£££#              she was here!               #£££¤=*«,.
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