,,,,,,,~%§ §%~,,,,,,,
,,~^%%%§@@ @@§%%%^~,,
,,~^%§§@@# #@@§§%^~,,
,,~^^^^%§§ §§%^^^^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,^^§§§ %^~~~~~,,,, ,,,,~~~~~^% §§§^^,,,,,
,,~^%§§### % % ###§§%^~,,
,,,,~~^%§@ % MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF % @§%^~~,,,,
,,~^%§§@## % % ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,,,~%§ %^~~~~~,,,, ,,,,~~~~~^% §%~,,,,,,,
,,~^%§§@@@ @@@§§%^~,,
,,,,~~^%§§ §§%^~~,,,,
,,~^%§§@@# I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING #@@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§§§§ TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS §§§§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,,^%§§ THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST §§%^,,,,,,
,,,,,,^^%§ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH §%^^,,,,,,
,,~^%§§@## THE TREES. ##@§§%^~,,
,,,~^%§§§@ @§§§%^~,,,
,,~^%§§@## MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE ##@§§%^~,,
,,,~^%§§§§ ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T §§§§%^~,,,
,,,,,~^%§§ REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY §§%^~,,,,,
,,,,~^§§§@ CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE @§§§^~,,,,
,,,,,^^§@@ ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND @@§^^,,,,,
,,,,,,^§§# US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER #§§^,,,,,,
,,~^%§§@## EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,~%§§§@ HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK @§§§%~,,,,
,,~^%§§@## AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## OUR TIME TOGETHER. ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§§§§ §§§§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,~%§@@ CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. @@§%~,,,,,
,,,,,,~%§§ WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD §§%~,,,,,,
,,~^%§§§§@ STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF @§§§§%^~,,
,,~^%§@### DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES ###@§%^~,,
,,,,,~^§§§ AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE §§§^~,,,,,
,,~^%§§@## AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE ##@§§%^~,,
,,,~~%§§§§ TELEVISION. §§§§%~~,,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED, ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§### AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME. ###§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,,~%%§ I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN §%%~,,,,,,
,,~^%§§@## NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,,~%§§ THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE, §§%~,,,,,,
,,~^%§§§§§ AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER §§§§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§§@# SO MUCH. #@§§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,~~%%§@ ~~~~~,,, ,,,~~~~~ @§%%~~,,,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,^%§§# I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY #§§%^,,,,,
,~^%§§@### MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME ###@§§%^~,
,,~^%§§@## EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,^%§§§ BARN, OR IN THE CAR. §§§%^,,,,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,^^^%§@ SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER @§%^^^,,,,
,,~^%§§@## FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN. ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§§@# EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A #@§§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@@# MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW #@@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT ##@§§%^~,,
,,~%§§@### HAD BEEN REAL... ###@§§%~,,
,~^%§§@### ###@§§%^~,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ~~~~~,,, ,,,~~~~~ ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,^^§@@ I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD @@§^^,,,,,
,,~^%§§§§§ WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY §§§§§%^~,,
,,~~~%%§@@ FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN @@§%%~~~,,
,,~^%§§@## CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,~%%§@ OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK @§%%~,,,,,
,,,,,,~~%§ WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD. §%~~,,,,,,
,,~^%§@### ###@§%^~,,
,,~^%§§§§§ AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND. §§§§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR, ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§§§§ SOME ON FIRE. §§§§§%^~,,
,,,,,,~%§§ §§%~,,,,,,
,,~^%§§@## THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED. ##@§§%^~,,
,,,,,,~%%§ §%%~,,,,,,
,,~^%§§@## AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§### SHE WAS HERE! ###§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,
,,~^%§§@## ##@§§%^~,,