Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then  I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.