Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And  I  Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think It Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.