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§¨§§§¨§¨§¨ I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING ¨¨¨¨§§§§§¨
§§§¨¨§§§§§ CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND §¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨§
¨¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨ TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS ¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨§
§¨¨§§§§¨¨¨ BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨ GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND §§¨§§§§§¨§
§§§§§¨¨§§¨ THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST ¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§§
¨¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§ MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH ¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§§§§§ THE TREES. §¨§§§§¨¨§§
§¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨ ¨§§¨¨¨§¨§¨
§§¨¨¨§§¨¨¨ MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE §§¨§¨¨§§§§
¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨¨ ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T ¨¨§§§¨§¨¨¨
¨¨§§¨§§§§¨ REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY ¨¨§¨¨§§§¨¨
¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨§ CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE ¨¨§§¨§¨¨§¨
¨¨§§§¨§¨¨§ ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND §¨§¨§§§¨§§
§¨§¨¨§§§¨§ US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER ¨§§§§¨¨§§¨
§§§§¨§¨¨§§ EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO ¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨§
¨¨¨¨§§§¨§¨ HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK §§§¨¨§§§§§
§¨¨¨§¨¨§§§ AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF ¨¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
§§¨¨§§¨§¨¨ OUR TIME TOGETHER. ¨¨¨§§§§¨¨¨
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§§§§§§§¨¨§ THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES §§¨§§¨¨§§¨
§¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨§ THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER §¨§§¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§§ CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨§§¨§§§§§§
§§§¨¨¨¨§¨¨ WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD ¨§¨§§¨¨¨¨¨
§¨¨§¨¨¨§§¨ STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF §§§§¨§¨¨¨¨
§§¨§§¨¨§¨§ DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES ¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨¨
§¨§§¨§¨§§§ AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE ¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨
§§§¨§§§§¨¨ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE §¨¨¨§§¨§§¨
§¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨ TELEVISION. §§¨¨§¨§§¨§
¨§¨§¨§¨¨§§ §¨§¨§§§¨§§
§§§§§§§¨§¨ AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT §§§§§¨¨§§¨
§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§§ AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED, §¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨ AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME. ¨§¨¨¨§§§§§
§§§¨¨¨¨§§¨ §§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨
§¨¨§¨¨¨§¨§ I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN ¨¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨
§§¨§§¨¨§§§ NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE ¨¨¨§§§¨§¨¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨¨ THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE, §¨¨§¨¨§§§¨
§§§¨§§§§§¨ AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER ¨§¨§§¨§¨¨§
¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§ SO MUCH. ¨§§§¨§§§¨§
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§§§§§¨§§§¨ I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY §¨¨§§§¨¨¨¨
§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§ MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME ¨§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨
§§¨¨¨§¨§¨§ EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. §§§§§¨§§¨¨
§¨§¨¨§§§§§ MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE ¨¨¨¨¨§§¨§¨
§§§§¨§¨¨¨¨ BARN, OR IN THE CAR. ¨¨¨¨¨§¨§§§
¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨¨ ¨¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨
¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨ SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER ¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨
¨¨¨¨§§¨§§¨ FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN. ¨¨¨¨¨§§¨§§
§¨¨¨§¨§§¨§ EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A §¨¨¨¨§¨§§¨
§§¨¨§§§¨§§ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW ¨§¨¨¨§§§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨¨§§¨ WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT ¨§§¨¨§¨¨§§
§¨§§§§¨§¨§ HAD BEEN REAL... §§¨§¨§§¨§¨
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§§¨§¨¨§§¨¨ I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD §§§§¨§¨§¨¨
§¨§§§¨§¨§¨ WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY ¨¨¨¨§§§§§¨
§§§¨¨§§§§§ FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN §¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨§
¨¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨ CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL ¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨§
§¨¨§§§§¨¨¨ OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨ WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD. §§¨§§§§§¨§
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¨¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§ AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND. ¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§§§§§ IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD §¨§§§§¨¨§§
§¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨ BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE ¨§§¨¨¨§¨§¨
§§¨¨¨§§¨¨¨ DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR, §§¨§¨¨§§§§
¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨¨ SOME ON FIRE. ¨¨§§§¨§¨¨¨
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¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨§ THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED. ¨¨§§¨§¨¨§¨
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§¨§¨¨§§§¨§ AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS ¨§§§§¨¨§§¨
§§§§¨§¨¨§§ DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY ¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨§
¨¨¨¨§§§¨§¨ TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! §§§¨¨§§§§§
§¨¨¨§¨¨§§§ SHE WAS HERE! ¨¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
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