party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage, and  as  i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she  steps out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what i  don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per  second - they  ask me: "when 
 you said the world egg  was  your  ideal 
 body type,  did you  mean  it"? i answer 
 "not really, but  i can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom