party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes,  of  garbage, and as i 
 start to  unzip my pants,  she steps out 
 of  the   shower   and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be  contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second - they  ask  me: "when 
 you said  the world egg  was your  ideal 
 body type, did  you mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but i  can act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom