party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of  dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my pants, she  steps  out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish  to   be   contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second -  they  ask me: "when 
 you  said the world egg  was your  ideal 
 body  type, did you  mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom