party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty  clothes, of garbage, and  as i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she  steps out 
 of   the   shower   and   pushes  me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien]  who would bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per  second - they  ask me:  "when 
 you  said  the world egg  was your ideal 
 body  type, did you mean it"?  i  answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom