party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage,  and  as i 
 start to  unzip  my pants, she steps out 
 of  the   shower   and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever.  what i don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second -  they ask  me: "when 
 you said  the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type, did  you  mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but i can act  like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom