party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower  curtains drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as  i 
 start  to unzip my pants,  she steps out 
 of  the  shower   and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever. what  i  don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second  - they ask  me: "when 
 you said  the  world egg was  your ideal 
 body  type, did you  mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but i  can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom