party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of  dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as i 
 start to unzip my pants, she  steps  out 
 of  the   shower   and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to   be  contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second -  they ask  me: "when 
 you  said  the world egg was  your ideal 
 body type, did you  mean it"?  i  answer 
 "not really, but i can  act like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom