party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of  dirty clothes, of  garbage, and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants, she steps  out 
 of   the   shower  and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be  contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who would bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what  i don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second  -  they ask me: "when 
 you  said the world egg  was your  ideal 
 body  type, did  you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but i  can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the encounter  and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom