party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn.  floor full 
 of  dirty  clothes, of garbage, and as i 
 start to  unzip my pants, she  steps out 
 of  the   shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted   by  some 
 [god, alien]  who would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second  -  they ask me: "when 
 you  said the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body type, did you mean  it"?  i  answer 
 "not really, but  i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom