Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not Know  How  Useful They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not Like,  And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid  To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful,  But  I Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.