Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To Ruin  All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It  Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.