Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It  Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.