Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not  Know  How  Useful They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.