i fall asleep in  the  wrong  throat and 
 is  not so much dreaming as being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
            big halls, arcades,           
          filled with characters.         
                                          
 i get instructions for them, for  what i 
 must imagine them doing  or saying. they 
 have  some  agency, but  not  while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into  my  mind, spoken  from  a god,  or 
             false demiurge.              
                                          
 sometimes i'm too  slow and fail to make 
 them  do  what  i'm   instructed  before 
 time's out, and  then they get punished. 
                                          
 one  of them got  his vocabulary  shrunk 
 down  to only the  word he failed to say 
     (roofs? rufus?), many were just      
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all   was   very   stressful    and 
 repulsive. it felt like  a nightmare, or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since