i fall asleep in  the wrong  throat  and 
 is not so  much dreaming as being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
           big halls, arcades,            
          filled with characters.         
                                          
 i get  instructions for them, for what i 
 must imagine them doing or  saying. they 
 have  some  agency, but  not  while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into  my mind,  spoken from  a  god,  or 
             false demiurge.              
                                          
 sometimes i'm too slow and  fail to make 
 them   do  what  i'm  instructed  before 
 time's out,  and then they get punished. 
                                          
 one of  them got  his vocabulary  shrunk 
 down to only the word he failed  to  say 
     (roofs? rufus?), many were just      
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all   was   very   stressful    and 
 repulsive. it felt  like a nightmare, or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since