i fall asleep in  the  wrong  throat and 
 is not so  much dreaming as being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
            big halls, arcades,           
         filled with characters.          
                                          
 i get instructions  for them, for what i 
 must imagine them doing or  saying. they 
 have  some  agency,  but  not while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into  my mind,  spoken  from  a  god, or 
              false demiurge.             
                                          
 sometimes i'm too slow and fail to  make 
 them  do  what  i'm  instructed   before 
 time's out, and  then they get punished. 
                                          
 one of them  got his  vocabulary  shrunk 
 down  to only the word he  failed to say 
      (roofs? rufus?), many were just     
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all   was   very    stressful   and 
 repulsive. it  felt like a nightmare, or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since