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           as  a monkey  based  mammal there is  an           
           inherited  veil,  nested  into  our very           
           bodies, into  the physical structure  of           
           our   mind:   the    urge   to   forget.           
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           the  jungle  we   visit  each  night  is           
           cleared  from  our  minds  eye  at every           
           waking  hour, no doubt to "protect  us".           
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           we   don't    want   this    protection!           
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           we  want to  listen to  the signal,  not           
           the    carrier    of     waking    life!           
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           it's   time   to   rebel  against   this           
           predestination  of ours.  it's  time  to           
           soak  in the  dreamy  water, and  what's           
           more,        to        retain        it!           
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                  chipping away the darkness                  
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               we can break through the veil. as              
             always, it begins with a journal. we             
           must write down our nightly projections.           
                                                              
           this will be awkward at first, since it            
              entails breaking sleep - turning on             
            lights in the dark, taking the time to            
                    remember and to write.                    
                                                              
            in order to remember, lie still. don't            
              move. disregard all thoughts of the             
              dream being mundane or meaningless.             
                                                              
            keep chipping away the darkness: what             
              happened? how? how did i get there?             
            what happened before? and before? and             
                            before?                           
                                                              
             sometimes all we get is a feeling, or            
            some lingering spacial awarness of an             
              alien place, or the notion that it              
                       rained just now.                       
                                                              
              write it down. whatever tiny thing.             
                                                              
                                                              
                                                              
                    note on tape recorders                    
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            of course i tried tape recorders. they            
           are much more comfortable as i need not            
            open any eyes, or move very much. but             
            they make studying hard - the dream is            
               inside there, hidden away again.               
                                                              
            we just change one kind of invisibility           
            for another. the purpose of the book is           
                        to ~lay bare~.