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¨§§§¨§¨¨¨¨         *                      *         ¨§¨¨¨§§§¨§
§§¨¨§§§¨¨¨         * MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF *         §§§¨¨§¨¨§§
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§¨§¨¨¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨¨§§¨¨
§§§§¨¨§¨§§                                          ¨§§§§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨¨§¨§§§¨  I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING ¨§¨¨¨§§§§§
¨§¨¨§§§¨¨§  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND §§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   §¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨
¨§¨§§§¨§§§   BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A    ¨§¨§§§¨§¨¨
¨§§§¨¨§§¨¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   ¨§§§¨¨§§§¨
¨§¨¨§¨§¨§¨   THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST  §§¨¨§¨§¨¨§
§§§¨§§§§§§  MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH §¨§¨§§§§¨§
¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨                THE TREES.                §§§§§¨¨¨§§
§¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨                                          §¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨
§§¨§§§§¨¨¨   MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE    ¨§¨¨¨§§¨§§
¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨   ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T    §§§¨¨§¨§§¨
¨¨§¨§¨¨§§¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     §¨¨§¨§§§¨§
§¨§§§§¨§¨§  CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE §§¨§§§¨¨§§
¨§§¨¨¨§§§§   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   §¨§§¨¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨   US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER  §§§¨§¨§§§§
§§§§§¨§§¨¨  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  §¨¨§§§§¨¨¨
§¨¨¨¨§§¨§¨   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   ¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨
§§¨¨¨§¨§§§   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  ¨§§§§¨¨§§¨
§¨§¨¨§§§¨¨            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §§§¨¨§§§§§
§§¨¨§§§¨§§  THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES   §¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§§¨   THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER  §§¨§§§§¨¨¨
§§§§§§¨§¨§ CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION.  ¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨
§¨¨¨¨¨§§§§      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     ¨¨§¨§¨¨§§¨
§§¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF §¨§§§§¨§¨§
¨¨§¨¨¨§§¨¨  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  ¨§§¨¨¨§§§§
§¨§§¨¨§¨§¨  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  ¨§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨
§§§¨§¨§§§§ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE  §§§§§¨§§¨¨
§¨¨§§§§¨¨¨                TELEVISION.               §¨¨¨¨§§¨§¨
§§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨                                          ¨§¨¨¨§¨§§§
¨¨§§§¨¨§§¨  AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT ¨§§¨¨§§§¨¨
¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨§  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  ¨§¨§¨§¨¨§¨
¨¨§§¨§§§§§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   §§§§§§§¨§§
§¨§¨§§¨¨¨¨                                          ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§¨
§§§§§¨§¨¨¨    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨§
¨¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  §¨¨¨¨¨¨§§§
§¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨  THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,   §§¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨
§§¨¨¨§§¨§§   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   ¨¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨
§¨§¨¨§¨§§¨                 SO MUCH.                 ¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨§
¨§§§¨§§§¨§                                          ¨¨§¨§¨¨§§§
§§¨¨§§¨¨§§                                          ¨¨§§§§¨§¨¨
§¨§¨§¨§¨§¨             »»»»»..¨ ¨..»»»»»            ¨¨§¨¨¨§§§¨
§§§§§§§§§§                                          §¨§§¨¨§¨¨§
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§§¨§
§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  §§¨§§§§¨§§
¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §¨§§¨¨¨§§¨
¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER.  §§§¨§¨¨§¨§
§§¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  §¨¨§§§¨§§§
¨¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           ¨§¨§¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨§¨¨§¨¨¨¨                                          ¨§§§§¨§¨§¨
¨¨§§¨§§¨¨¨     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      ¨§¨¨¨§§§§§
§¨§¨§§¨§¨¨    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    §§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨
§§§§§¨§§§¨     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     ¨¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨
§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§ MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW  §¨¨§§§¨§¨¨
§§¨¨¨§¨§¨§   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§¨§¨¨§§§¨
§¨§¨¨§§§§§             HAD BEEN REAL...             ¨§§§§¨§¨¨§
¨§§§¨§¨¨¨¨                                          ¨§¨¨¨§§§¨§
§§¨¨§§§¨¨¨                                          §§§¨¨§¨¨§§
¨¨§¨§¨¨§¨¨             »»»»»..¨ ¨..»»»»»            ¨¨¨§¨§§¨§¨
¨¨§§§§¨§§¨                                          §¨¨§§§¨§§§
§¨§¨¨¨§§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨¨§§¨¨
§§§§¨¨§¨§§    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨§§§§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨¨§¨§§§¨  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   ¨§¨¨¨§§§§§
¨§¨¨§§§¨¨§   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   §§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨
¨§§¨§¨¨§¨§   CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL    §¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨
¨§¨§§§¨§§§   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨§¨§§§¨§¨¨
¨§§§¨¨§§¨¨    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     ¨§§§¨¨§§§¨
¨§¨¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §§¨¨§¨§¨¨§
§§§¨§§§§§§   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  §¨§¨§§§§¨§
¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   §§§§§¨¨¨§§
§¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    §¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨
§§¨§§§§¨¨¨    DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,   ¨§¨¨¨§§¨§§
¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨               SOME ON FIRE.              §§§¨¨§¨§§¨
¨¨§¨§¨¨§§¨                                          §¨¨§¨§§§¨§
§¨§§§§¨§¨§       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        §§¨§§§¨¨§§
¨§§¨¨¨§§§§                                          §¨§§¨¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   §§§¨§¨§§§§
§§§§§¨§§¨¨     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     §¨¨§§§§¨¨¨
§¨¨¨¨§§¨§¨  TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING! ¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨
§§¨¨¨§¨§§§               SHE WAS HERE!              ¨§§§§¨¨§§¨
§¨§¨¨§§§¨¨                                          ¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §§§¨¨§§§§§
§§¨¨§§§¨§§                                          §¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
§¨§¨§¨¨§§¨                                          §§¨§§§§¨¨¨
§§§§§§¨§¨§                                          ¨¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨