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&,,,&,&,,&                 ,,*@*,,                  ,&,&&,&,,&
&,,&&&&,&,             ,,;$@######@$;,,             &&&,&&&,&,
&,&,,,&&&,         ,,,,,~$# dreams #$~,,,,,         ,,&&,,&&&&
&&&,,&,,&&             ,,;$@######@$;,,             ,&,&,&,,,,
,,&,&&,&,,                 ,,*@*,,                  &&&&&&,,,&
,&&&,&&&,&                                          ,,,,,&,,&&
&,,&&,,&&,                   ,,,                    ,,,,&&,&,&
&,&,&,&,&&                 ,*&###&*,                ,,,&,&&&&,
&&&&&&&&,&                    ,,,                   ,,&&&,,,&&
,,,,,,,&&,                                          ,&,,&,,&,,
,,,,,,&,&,         internal visionary state         &&,&&,&&,,
,,,,,&&&&&                                          ,&&,&&,&,,
,,,,&,,,,,            the spirit travels            &,&&,&&&,,
,,,&&,,,,&                                          &&,&&,,&,,
,,&,&,,,&&             ,,;$@######@$;,,             ,&&,&,&&,,
,&&&&,,&,,                    ,~,                   &,&&&&,&,,
&,,,&,&&,,                                          &&,,,&&&,,
&,,&&&,&,&                  a cost                  ,&,,&,,&,&
&,&,,&&&&,                (anecdote)                &&,&&,&&&,
&&&,&,,,&,                                          ,&&,&&,,&&
,,&&&,,&&,                    ,,                    &,&&,&,&,,
,&,,&,&,&,                                          &&,&&&&&,,
&&,&&&&&&, i  wake  suddenly,  and   for  a  second ,&&,,,,&,,
,&&,,,,,&& everything  is completely calm and  dead &,&,,,&&,&
&,&,,,,&,& silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i &&&,,&,&&&
&&&,,,&&&& slowly   start  to  piece   together  my ,,&,&&&,,,
,,&,,&,,,,        consciousness and my body.        ,&&&,,&,,&
,&&,&&,,,,                                          &,,&,&&,&&
&,&&,&,,,& then  the  fear  hits  me   and  i  feel &,&&&,&&,&
&&,&&&,,&,   acutely sick. something is ~wrong~.    &&,,&&,&&,
,&&,,&,&&,                                          ,&,&,&&,&&
&,&,&&&,&&                    ,,                    &&&&&,&&,&
&&&&,,&&,&                                          ,,,,&&,&&,
,,,&,&,&&, there are  circles and crosses inscribed ,,,&,&&,&&
,,&&&&&,&, all  over  my vision, pressing in, being ,,&&&,&&,&
,&,,,,&&&, almost hostile. i can feel them  squirm, ,&,,&&,&&&
&&,,,&,,&,     their internal logic changing and    &&,&,&&,,&
,&,,&&,&&, grinding trenches in my mind. it's  like ,&&&&,&,&,
&&,&,&&,&& language, sentences  i can't hide  from, &,,,&&&&&,
,&&&&,&&,& forcefully  transcribed in my  mind, and &,,&,,,,&&
&,,,&&,&&&            doing damage there.           &,&&,,,&,&
&,,&,&&,,&                                          &&,&,,&&&,
&,&&&,&,&, then i  realize  i  can't  hear anything ,&&&,&,,&&
&&,,&&&&&&     because there's something there      &,,&&&,&,,
,&,&,,,,,&    already, droning everything out, a    &,&,,&&&,&
&&&&,,,,&, rapid  melody,  almost caustic  in  it's &&&,&,,&&&
,,,&,,,&&,        particular microtonality.         ,,&&&,&,,,
,,&&,,&,&,                                          ,&,,&&&,,,
,&,&,&&&&,                    ,,                    &&,&,,&,,,
&&&&&,,,&,                                          ,&&&,&&,,,
,,,,&,,&&, my surroundings are  entirely calm. it's &,,&&,&,,&
,,,&&,&,&,              almost mocking.             &,&,&&&,&&
,,&,&&&&&&                                          &&&&,,&&,&
,&&&,,,,,, i  feel  helpless,  but  i must  try  to ,,,&,&,&&&
&,,&,,,,,, escape. to crawl  on the floor searching ,,&&&&&,,&
&,&&,,,,,, relief, such is  my nature. turning  the ,&,,,,&,&,
&&,&,,,,,&     lights on does nothing... getting    &&,,,&&&&&
,&&&,,,,&,  outside does nothing... drinking water  ,&,,&,,,,,
&,,&,,,&&, does noting...  but  time  does  - after &&,&&,,,,,
&,&&,,&,&&     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     ,&&,&,,,,&
&&,&,&&&,& doubting  anything  of this  happened in &,&&&,,,&,
,&&&&,,&&&             the first place.             &&,,&,,&&&
&,,,&,&,,&                                          ,&,&&,&,,&
&,,&&&&,&, my eyes are still tense though,  scared. &&&,&&&,&,
&,&,,,&&&, i    don't    know    what    to   make. ,,&&,,&&&&
&&&,,&,,&&                                          ,&,&,&,,,,
,,&,&&,&,,              but i'm tired.              &&&&&&,,,&
,&&&,&&&,&                                          ,,,,,&,,&&
&,,&&,,&&,                    ,                     ,,,,&&,&,&
&,&,&,&,&&                  ,,~;~,,                 ,,,&,&&&&,
&&&&&&&&,&                     ,                    ,,&&&,,,&&
,,,,,,,&&,                                          ,&,,&,,&,,
,,,,,,&,&, this can  happen if you wander too  far, &&,&&,&&,,
,,,,,&&&&& i  guess?  i  shouldn't  be so  reckless ,&&,&&,&,,
,,,,&,,,,,              when dreaming?              &,&&,&&&,,
,,,&&,,,,& i imagine  a prick  on the  nose, that's &&,&&,,&,,
,,&,&,,,&& what these are.  like you do  with a cat ,&&,&,&&,,
,&&&&,,&,, who comes  to close  to your sandwich... &,&&&&,&,,
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