,,,,,~~*$& &$*~~,,,,,
,:~\**$&&& &&&$**\~:,
,:~\*$@@## ##@@$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# #@@&$*\~:,
,,,,,:\$@@ @@$\:,,,,,
,:~\*$&@@@ ,,*@*,, @@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@@ ,:\$@@####@@$\:, @@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@@ ,,,::~$@ dreams @$~::,,, @@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# ,:\$@@####@@$\:, #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\****&@ ,,*@*,, @&****\~:,
,,,,,::~*& &*~::,,,,,
,:~\*$&@@# ,:, #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# ,*&@#@&*, #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# ,:, #@@&$*\~:,
,,,,,,,~*& &*~,,,,,,,
,,,,,:\\$& internal visionary state &$\\:,,,,,
,,,,,,:\$@ @$\:,,,,,,
,:~\*$&@@# the spirit travels #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&&&@ @&&&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# ,:\$@@####@@$\:, #@@&$*\~:,
,,,,~\\*&& ,~, &&*\\~,,,,
,,,:::~**& &**~:::,,,
,:~~~\$$&& a cost &&$$\~~~:,
,,,,,:~~*& (anecdote) &*~~:,,,,,
,:~\*$&@@# #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# :: #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# i wake suddenly, and for a second #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# everything is completely calm and dead #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# silent. it's dark, and warm, and i #@@&$*\~:,
,,,,,~~*$@ slowly start to piece together my @$*~~,,,,,
,:~\*$&@@# consciousness and my body. #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$$&@@ @@&$$*\~:,
,,,,:\\$@@ then the fear hits me and i feel @@$\\:,,,,
,:~\*$&@## acutely sick. something is ~wrong~. ##@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$$&&& &&&$$*\~:,
,,::\***&& ,, &&***\::,,
,:~\*$&@@# #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# there are circles and crosses inscribed #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# all over my vision, pressing in, being #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@@ almost hostile. i can feel them squirm, @@@&$*\~:,
,,,,~\\**& their internal logic changing and &**\\~,,,,
,,,::~~*$& grinding trenches in my mind. it's like &$*~~::,,,
,:~\*$&@@# language, sentences i can't hide from, #@@&$*\~:,
,,,,:~*&&& forcefully transcribed in my mind, and &&&*~:,,,,
,::::~\$@@ doing damage there. @@$\~::::,
,:~\*$&&&@ @&&&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# then i realize i can't hear anything #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# because there's something there #@@&$*\~:,
,,,,~~*$$& already, droning everything out, a &$$*~~,,,,
,,,::~\\*& rapid melody, almost caustic in it's &*\\~::,,,
,:~\*$&&&@ particular microtonality. @&&&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@## ##@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# :: #@@&$*\~:,
,,,,:\$$&@ @&$$\:,,,,
,:~\***$&@ my surroundings are entirely calm. it's @&$***\~:,
,,,~~**&&& almost mocking. &&&**~~,,,
,,,:\\**$& &$**\\:,,,
,,,::\*$&@ i feel helpless, but i must try to @&$*\::,,,
,,,,:~***& escape. to crawl on the floor searching &***~:,,,,
,::~~~\$&& relief, such is my nature. turning the &&$\~~~::,
,:~\*$&@@@ lights on does nothing... getting @@@&$*\~:,
,,,,:~\$$& outside does nothing... drinking water &$$\~:,,,,
,:~\*$&&@@ does noting... but time does - after @@&&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# thirty seconds i'm normal again, #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@## doubting anything of this happened in ##@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# the first place. #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@@ @@@&$*\~:,
,,,,~\*&&@ my eyes are still tense though, scared. @&&*\~,,,,
,,,,,,~*&& i don't know what to make. &&*~,,,,,,
,,,,,,:~*& &*~:,,,,,,
,:~\\**$@@ but i'm tired. @@$**\\~:,
,,,,,:\$@@ @@$\:,,,,,
,,,~~*$&@@ , @@&$*~~,,,
,:~\*$&@@@ ::~\~:: @@@&$*\~:,
,,,:\\\$$@ , @$$\\\:,,,
,:~\*$&@@# #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@@ this can happen if you wander too far, @@@&$*\~:,
,,,,:~**$@ i guess? i shouldn't be so reckless @$**~:,,,,
,:~\*$&@@# when dreaming? #@@&$*\~:,
,,,,,,:\$@ i imagine a prick on the nose, that's @$\:,,,,,,
,:~\*$&@@# what these are. like you do with a cat #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$@@## who comes to close to your sandwich... ##@@$*\~:,
,,,,,,,~*& &*~,,,,,,,
,:~\*$&@@# #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# #@@&$*\~:,
,:~\*$@@## ##@@$*\~:,
,:~\*$&@@# #@@&$*\~:,