§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨¨¨§¨§¨¨§
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨¨¨§§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          ¨¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          ¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                  ¨¨§#§¨¨                 §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨             ¨^†$########$†^¨             §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨         ¨¨¨^^»$# dreams #$»^^¨¨¨         §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨             ¨^†$########$†^¨             §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                  ¨¨§#§¨¨                 §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                   ¨^¨                    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                 ¨§§###§§¨                §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                   ¨^¨                    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨         internal visionary state         §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨            the spirit travels            §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨             ¨^†$########$†^¨             §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                    ¨»¨                   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                  a cost                  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                (anecdote)                §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                    ^^                    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ i  wake   suddenly,  and  for  a  second §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ everything is  completely calm and  dead §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ slowly   start  to  piece   together  my §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨        consciousness and my body.        §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ then  the  fear   hits  me  and  i  feel §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨   acutely sick. something is »wrong».    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                    ¨¨                    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ there are circles and  crosses inscribed §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ all over  my  vision, pressing in, being §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ almost  hostile. i can feel them squirm, §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨    their internal logic changing and     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ grinding trenches in my mind. it's  like §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ language,  sentences i can't hide  from, §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ forcefully transcribed in my  mind,  and §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨            doing damage there.           §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ then  i realize i  can't  hear  anything §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨     because there's something there      §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨    already, droning everything out, a    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ rapid  melody, almost  caustic  in  it's §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨        particular microtonality.         §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                    ^^                    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ my  surroundings are entirely calm. it's §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨             almost mocking.              §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ i  feel  helpless,  but  i  must try  to §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ escape. to crawl on  the floor searching §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ relief, such  is  my nature. turning the §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨    lights on does nothing... getting     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨  outside does nothing... drinking water  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ does  noting...  but time  does -  after §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ doubting  anything  of  this happened in §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨             the first place.             §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ my eyes are still  tense though, scared. §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ i   don't    know    what    to    make. §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨              but i'm tired.              §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                     ¨                    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                 ^^»†»^^                  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                    ¨                     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ this can  happen if  you wander too far, §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ i  guess?  i shouldn't  be  so  reckless §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨              when dreaming?              §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ i  imagine a prick on the  nose,  that's §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨ what these are. like  you do with  a cat §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨ who comes  to close  to your sandwich... §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨¨§¨                                          §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨