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§§¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨ HALLUCINOGENS IN THE WINTER BECAUSE I §¨¨§§§§§§§
¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨§ DO NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN §¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
§§¨§¨§¨¨§§ ANYWAY? I GET SO TENSE WHEN I TAKE §§§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨§§§§§¨§¨¨ THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND ¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨§
§¨¨¨¨§§§¨§ THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§§
§¨¨¨§¨¨§§¨ REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND THERE WILL BE §¨§¨¨¨¨§¨¨
§¨¨§§¨§¨§§ ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY §§§¨¨¨§§¨§
§¨§¨§§§§¨§ ATTACKS WITH RANDOM THINGS THAT I ¨¨§¨¨§¨§§¨
§§§§¨¨¨§§§ HAPPEN TO SEE... FOR EXAMPLE, FOR A ¨§§¨§§§¨§§
¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨¨ LONG TIME I COULD NOT SEE A CERTAIN §¨§§¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨§§¨§§¨¨§ KIND OF LEAF WITHOUT GETTING ANXIOUS §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
¨§¨§§¨§¨§¨ ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE ¨§§§§§§§¨¨
§§§¨§§§§§¨ SEASONS THIS WAY. §¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨
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¨¨§§§§§§¨¨ INCREASED OR AT LEAST THE BURN-INS IN §¨§§¨§§§§¨
¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨ THE EYES, AND SOMETIMES STUFF IS §§¨§§¨¨¨§¨
§§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨ BREATHING NOW, THEY DID NOT DO IT ¨§§¨§¨¨§§¨
¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨§ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH §¨§§§¨§¨§§
§§¨¨§§§§§§ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL §§¨¨§§§§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨¨¨¨§ THESE THINGS UP. ¨§¨§¨¨¨§§¨
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¨§¨§¨§§¨¨¨ IT COMES TO ME SOMETIMES THAT SHIT, ¨§¨¨§¨¨¨§§
§§§§§¨§¨¨§ WHAT A LOAD OF CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" §§¨§§¨¨§¨§
¨¨¨¨§§§¨§§ CONSISTS OF, AND HOW VAGUE THEY ARE ¨§§¨§¨§§§¨
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¨¨§¨¨§¨§§¨ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I ¨§§§¨§¨¨§§
¨§§¨§§§¨§§ CLOSE MY EYES, NOT ACTUALLY CEV'S §¨¨§§§¨§¨§
§¨§§¨¨§§¨¨ THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. §¨§¨¨§§§§§
§§¨§¨§¨§¨¨ NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL §§§¨§¨¨¨¨¨
¨§§§§§§§¨§ SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME ¨¨§§§¨¨¨¨§
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§¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨§ AND IT IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I BECOME §§¨§§¨¨§¨¨
§¨¨¨¨§§¨§¨ SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT HAS TO DO ¨§§¨§¨§§¨§
§¨¨¨§¨§§§§ WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE. §¨§§§§¨§§¨
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