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§¨§§¨¨¨¨§§                    EH                    ¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨§
§§¨§¨¨¨§¨§                                          §§¨§¨§¨¨§¨
¨§§§¨¨§§§§                     ~                    ¨§§§§§¨§§§
§¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨                                          §¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§
§¨§§§§¨¨¨¨ I   WAS    THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING §¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨ HALLUCINOGENS IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE  I §¨¨§§§§§§§
¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨§ DO  NOT KNOW HOW  USEFUL THEY  HAVE BEEN §¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
§§¨§¨§¨¨§§ ANYWAY?  I  GET SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE §§§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨§§§§§¨§¨¨ THEM,  THE LAST FEW  TIMES AT LEAST, AND ¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨§
§¨¨¨¨§§§¨§ THERE ARE PLENTY  OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§§
§¨¨¨§¨¨§§¨ REALLY  DO NOT  LIKE, AND THERE  WILL BE §¨§¨¨¨¨§¨¨
§¨¨§§¨§¨§§   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   §§§¨¨¨§§¨§
§¨§¨§§§§¨§ ATTACKS  WITH  RANDOM   THINGS  THAT   I ¨¨§¨¨§¨§§¨
§§§§¨¨¨§§§ HAPPEN TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A ¨§§¨§§§¨§§
¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨¨ LONG  TIME I  COULD  NOT SEE  A  CERTAIN §¨§§¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨§§¨§§¨¨§ KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING ANXIOUS §§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
¨§¨§§¨§¨§¨ ... AND  I SHOULD AVOID TO  RUIN ALL THE ¨§§§§§§§¨¨
§§§¨§§§§§¨             SEASONS THIS WAY.            §¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨
¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§§                                          §¨¨¨¨¨§§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨                    ~                     §¨¨¨¨§¨§§§
§§§§¨¨§§¨¨                                          §¨¨¨§§§¨¨§
¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨¨    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     §¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨§§§§§§¨¨ INCREASED  OR AT  LEAST THE  BURN-INS IN §¨§§¨§§§§¨
¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨ THE   EYES,   AND  SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS §§¨§§¨¨¨§¨
§§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨ BREATHING  NOW,   THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT ¨§§¨§¨¨§§¨
¨§¨¨¨§¨§¨§ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK  TOO MUCH §¨§§§¨§¨§§
§§¨¨§§§§§§ COFFEE.  MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL §§¨¨§§§§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨¨¨¨§             THESE THINGS UP.             ¨§¨§¨¨¨§§¨
§§§§¨¨¨¨§¨                                          §§§§¨¨§¨§¨
¨¨¨§¨¨¨§§§                    ~                     ¨¨¨§¨§§§§§
¨¨§§¨¨§¨¨¨                                          ¨¨§§§¨¨¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨¨ IT COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, ¨§¨¨§¨¨¨§§
§§§§§¨§¨¨§ WHAT A LOAD OF  CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" §§¨§§¨¨§¨§
¨¨¨¨§§§¨§§ CONSISTS  OF, AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE ¨§§¨§¨§§§¨
¨¨¨§¨¨§§¨§                                          §¨§§§§¨¨§¨
¨¨§§¨§¨§§¨                    ~                     §§¨¨¨§¨§§¨
¨§¨§§§§¨§§                                          ¨§¨¨§§§¨§¨
§§§¨¨¨§§¨§ IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY §§¨§¨¨§§§¨
¨¨§¨¨§¨§§¨ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER  BE DARK WHEN I ¨§§§¨§¨¨§§
¨§§¨§§§¨§§ CLOSE  MY   EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S §¨¨§§§¨§¨§
§¨§§¨¨§§¨¨ THOUGH, RATHER JUST  FIELDS  AND MOTION. §¨§¨¨§§§§§
§§¨§¨§¨§¨¨ NOW AND THEN I  HEAR THIS SOUND  (A REAL §§§¨§¨¨¨¨¨
¨§§§§§§§¨§    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     ¨¨§§§¨¨¨¨§
§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§§  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  ¨§¨¨§¨¨¨§§
§¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨§ AND  IT  IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME §§¨§§¨¨§¨¨
§¨¨¨¨§§¨§¨ SO  STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK  IT HAS TO DO ¨§§¨§¨§§¨§
§¨¨¨§¨§§§§        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.         §¨§§§§¨§§¨
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¨§¨§§¨¨¨§§                                          §¨§¨§¨¨¨§¨