Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think It Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.