Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.