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§§¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨                    EH                    ¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§
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§¨¨§¨¨¨¨§§                     ~                    §¨§¨¨¨§§¨¨
§¨§§¨¨¨§¨¨                                          §§§¨¨§¨§¨§
§§¨§¨¨§§¨¨ I   WAS    THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING ¨¨§¨§§§§§¨
¨§§§¨§¨§¨§ HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE  WINTER BECAUSE I ¨§§§¨¨¨¨§§
§¨¨§§§§§§¨ DO NOT KNOW  HOW USEFUL  THEY  HAVE BEEN §¨¨§¨¨¨§¨§
§¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§ ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE WHEN  I  TAKE §¨§§¨¨§§§¨
§§§¨¨¨¨§¨§ THEM, THE  LAST  FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND §§¨§¨§¨¨§§
¨¨§¨¨¨§§§§ THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE  EFFECTS THAT I ¨§§§§§¨§¨¨
¨§§¨¨§¨¨¨§ REALLY  DO NOT LIKE,  AND THERE WILL  BE §¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨
§¨§¨§§¨¨§¨   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   §¨¨¨§¨¨§¨¨
§§§§¨§¨§§¨ ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM   THINGS  THAT  I §¨¨§§¨§§¨§
¨¨¨§§§§¨§§ HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A §¨§¨§§¨§§¨
¨¨§¨¨¨§§¨§ LONG  TIME  I  COULD  NOT SEE  A CERTAIN §§§§¨§§¨§¨
¨§§¨¨§¨§§§ KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING ANXIOUS ¨¨¨§§¨§§§¨
§¨§¨§§§¨¨§ ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN  ALL  THE ¨¨§¨§§¨¨§¨
§§§§¨¨§¨§§             SEASONS THIS WAY.            ¨§§§¨§¨§§§
¨¨¨§¨§§§¨§                                          §¨¨§§§§¨¨¨
¨¨§§§¨¨§§¨                     ~                    §¨§¨¨¨§¨¨¨
¨§¨¨§¨§¨§§                                          §§§¨¨§§¨¨¨
§§¨§§§§§¨¨    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     ¨¨§¨§¨§¨¨¨
¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨§ INCREASED  OR  AT LEAST THE BURN-INS  IN ¨§§§§§§¨¨§
§¨§¨¨¨§§§§ THE   EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS §¨¨¨¨¨§¨§§
§§§¨¨§¨¨¨¨ BREATHING  NOW,   THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT §¨¨¨¨§§§¨¨
¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨§ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST  DRANK TOO MUCH §¨¨¨§¨¨§¨§
¨§§§¨§¨¨§§ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND  MAKING ALL §¨¨§§¨§§§§
§¨¨§§§¨§¨¨             THESE THINGS UP.             §¨§¨§§¨¨¨§
§¨§¨¨§§§¨¨                                          §§§§¨§¨¨§¨
§§§¨§¨¨§¨§                     ~                    ¨¨¨§§§¨§§§
¨¨§§§¨§§§¨                                          ¨¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨
¨§¨¨§§¨¨§§ IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT SHIT, ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨¨
§§¨§¨§¨§¨¨ WHAT A  LOAD OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" §¨§§§§§¨¨¨
¨§§§§§§§¨¨ CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE THEY  ARE §§¨¨¨¨§¨¨§
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§¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨                     ~                    §§¨¨§¨§§¨¨
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§¨¨¨§§§§§¨ IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR ABOUT  TWENTY §§§¨¨§§§§¨
§¨¨§¨¨¨¨§¨ HOURS,  IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I ¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§§
§¨§§¨¨¨§§§ CLOSE  MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY   CEV'S ¨§§§§¨¨§¨¨
§§¨§¨¨§¨¨§ THOUGH,  RATHER JUST FIELDS  AND MOTION. §¨¨¨§¨§§¨§
¨§§§¨§§¨§¨ NOW  AND THEN  I HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL §¨¨§§§¨§§¨
§¨¨§§¨§§§§    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     §¨§¨¨§§¨§¨
§¨§¨§§¨¨¨§  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  §§§¨§¨§§§§
§§§§¨§¨¨§§ AND  IT IS ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME ¨¨§§§§¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨§§§¨§¨§ SO STRESSFUL, BUT  I THINK IT  HAS TO DO ¨§¨¨¨§¨¨¨§
¨¨§¨¨§§§§¨        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.         §§¨¨§§¨¨§§
¨§§¨§¨¨¨§§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨§
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