Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At Least,  And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long Time  I Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This  Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But  I Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.