EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    WAS    THINKING   TO   STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS IN  THE  WINTER BECAUSE  I 
 DO NOT  KNOW HOW  USEFUL THEY HAVE  BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN I  TAKE 
 THEM,  THE LAST  FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT  I 
 REALLY DO  NOT  LIKE, AND THERE  WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM  THINGS  THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR A 
 LONG  TIME  I  COULD  NOT  SEE A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I  SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN  ALL THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED  OR AT  LEAST  THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE   EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,   THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO  MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED  AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN  I 
 CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER JUST  FIELDS AND MOTION. 
 NOW  AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND  (A REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT  IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO  STRESSFUL, BUT  I THINK IT HAS TO DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.