Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times At  Least,  And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A  Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It Has  To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.