Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was    Thinking   To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At  Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To  Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.