Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times At  Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.