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#&&=«,,,,,                                          ,,,,,«=&&#
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#@&&*=*«,,                    eh                    ,,«*=*&&@#
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##@&*=*«,, i   was    thinking   to   stop    doing ,,«*=*&@##
&&***=*«,, hallucinogens  in  the winter  because i ,,«*=***&&
&&=**««,,, do  not know how useful  they have  been ,,,««**=&&
##@&*=*«,, anyway?  i  get  so  tense when  i  take ,,«*=*&@##
@@***=*«,, them,  the  last few times at least, and ,,«*=***@@
##@&*=*«,, there are  plenty of side effects that i ,,«*=*&@##
##@&*=*«,, really do  not like,  and  there will be ,,«*=*&@##
@&&==«,,,,   associations with these mini-anxiety   ,,,,«==&&@
&&==***«,, attacks  with   random   things  that  i ,,«***==&&
&***=**«,, happen  to  see... for  example,  for  a ,,«**=***&
&***,,,,,, long  time i  could  not  see a  certain ,,,,,,***&
&&==**,,,, kind  of  leaf without  getting  anxious ,,,,**==&&
@&****«,,, ... and i  should avoid to ruin all  the ,,,«****&@
@*==««,,,,             seasons this way.            ,,,,««==*@
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##@&*=*«,,    hmm, recently my visual phenomena     ,,«*=*&@##
##@&*=*«,, increased  or  at least the burn-ins  in ,,«*=*&@##
@@@&*=*«,, the   eyes,   and  sometimes  stuff   is ,,«*=*&@@@
##@&*=*«,, breathing  now,  they  did  not   do  it ,,«*=*&@##
#&**==*«,, before. but maybe i  just drank too much ,,«*==**&#
#@@&*=*«,, coffee. maybe i'm scared and making  all ,,«*=*&@@#
###&*=*«,,             these things up.             ,,«*=*&###
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&**=«,,,,,                     «                    ,,,,,«=**&
&=«««««,,,                                          ,,,«««««=&
###@&=*«,, it  comes to  me  sometimes  that  shit, ,,«*=&@###
##@&*=*«,, what a load of  concepts  this "reality" ,,«*=*&@##
#@&=««,,,, consists  of,  and how  vague  they  are ,,,,««=&@#
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&&&*=**«,,                                          ,,«**=*&&&
@**,,,,,,, if  i do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty ,,,,,,,**@
&=«,,,,,,, hours, it will no longer  be dark when i ,,,,,,,«=&
##@&*=*«,, close  my  eyes,   not  actually   cev's ,,«*=*&@##
##@&*=*«,, though, rather just  fields  and motion. ,,«*=*&@##
&=«,,,,,,, now and then i hear  this sound (a  real ,,,,,,,«=&
#&==«,,,,,    sound (i think)), resembling some     ,,,,,«==&#
###&*=*«,,  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ,,«*=*&###
##@&*=*«,, and  it  is  always unpleasant, i become ,,«*=*&@##
&&&**=*«,, so stressful,  but i think it has to  do ,,«*=**&&&
##@&*=*«,,         with the novelty. i hope.        ,,«*=*&@##
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