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&,,&,,&,,,                 ,,%¶%,,                  &,,&&&,&&&
&,&&,&&,,&             ,~*$¶@####@¶$*~,             &,&,,&&,,,
&&,&&,&,&,         ,,,~~»$@ dreams @$»~~,,,         &&&,&,&,,&
,&&,&&&&&,             ,~*$¶@####@¶$*~,             ,,&&&&&,&,
&,&&,,,,&,                 ,,%¶%,,                  ,&,,,,&&&,
&&,&,,,&&&                                          &&,,,&,,&&
,&&&,,&,,&                    ,~,                   ,&,,&&,&,,
&,,&,&&,&&                ,%&@#@&%,                 &&,&,&&&,,
&,&&&,&&,,                    ,~,                   ,&&&&,,&,&
&&,,&&,&,&                                          &,,,&,&&&,
,&,&,&&&&&         internal visionary state         &,,&&&,,&&
&&&&&,,,,,                                          &,&,,&,&,&
,,,,&,,,,,            the spirit travels            &&&,&&&&&,
,,,&&,,,,,                                          ,,&&,,,,&,
,,&,&,,,,&             ,~*$¶@####@¶$*~,             ,&,&,,,&&,
,&&&&,,,&&                    ,»,                   &&&&,,&,&,
&,,,&,,&,&                                          ,,,&,&&&&,
&,,&&,&&&&                  a cost                  ,,&&&,,,&&
&,&,&&,,,&                (anecdote)                ,&,,&,,&,,
&&&&,&,,&,                                          &&,&&,&&,&
,,,&&&,&&&                    ~~                    ,&&,&&,&&,
,,&,,&&,,,                                          &,&&,&&,&,
,&&,&,&,,, i   wake  suddenly,  and  for  a  second &&,&&,&&&,
&,&&&&&,,, everything is completely calm  and  dead ,&&,&&,,&,
&&,,,,&,,, silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i &,&&,&,&&&
,&,,,&&,,, slowly  start   to  piece   together  my &&,&&&&,,,
&&,,&,&,,,        consciousness and my body.        ,&&,,,&,,,
,&,&&&&,,&                                          &,&,,&&,,&
&&&,,,&,&, then  the  fear  hits  me  and   i  feel &&&,&,&,&&
,,&,,&&&&&   acutely sick. something is »wrong».    ,,&&&&&&,,
,&&,&,,,,&                                          ,&,,,,,&,,
&,&&&,,,&&                    ,,                    &&,,,,&&,,
&&,,&,,&,,                                          ,&,,,&,&,&
,&,&&,&&,, there are circles  and crosses inscribed &&,,&&&&&,
&&&,&&,&,, all  over my vision, pressing in,  being ,&,&,,,,&,
,,&&,&&&,& almost hostile.  i can feel them squirm, &&&&,,,&&&
,&,&&,,&&&    their internal logic changing and     ,,,&,,&,,&
&&&,&,&,,& grinding trenches in  my mind. it's like ,,&&,&&,&&
,,&&&&&,&, language,  sentences i can't  hide from, ,&,&&,&&,,
,&,,,,&&&& forcefully transcribed in  my  mind, and &&&,&&,&,,
&&,,,&,,,&           doing damage there.            ,,&&,&&&,,
,&,,&&,,&&                                          ,&,&&,,&,&
&&,&,&,&,, then  i  realize i can't  hear  anything &&&,&,&&&&
,&&&&&&&,&     because there's something there      ,,&&&&,,,,
&,,,,,,&&,    already, droning everything out, a    ,&,,,&,,,,
&,,,,,&,&& rapid melody,  almost  caustic  in  it's &&,,&&,,,&
&,,,,&&&,,        particular microtonality.         ,&,&,&,,&,
&,,,&,,&,&                                          &&&&&&,&&&
&,,&&,&&&,                    ~~                    ,,,,,&&,,,
&,&,&&,,&&                                          ,,,,&,&,,&
&&&&,&,&,& my surroundings are  entirely calm. it's ,,,&&&&,&,
,,,&&&&&&,             almost mocking.              ,,&,,,&&&&
,,&,,,,,&,                                          ,&&,,&,,,&
,&&,,,,&&& i  feel  helpless,  but  i  must  try to &,&,&&,,&&
&,&,,,&,,, escape. to crawl on the  floor searching &&&&,&,&,&
&&&,,&&,,& relief,  such is my nature. turning  the ,,,&&&&&&,
,,&,&,&,&&     lights on does nothing... getting    ,,&,,,,,&&
,&&&&&&&,,  outside does nothing... drinking water  ,&&,,,,&,&
&,,,,,,&,, does  noting...  but  time  does - after &,&,,,&&&&
&,,,,,&&,&     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     &&&,,&,,,,
&,,,,&,&&& doubting anything of  this  happened  in ,,&,&&,,,&
&,,,&&&,,,             the first place.             ,&&&,&,,&,
&,,&,,&,,,                                          &,,&&&,&&&
&,&&,&&,,& my eyes  are still tense though, scared. &,&,,&&,,,
&&,&&,&,&, i    don't    know   what    to    make. &&&,&,&,,&
,&&,&&&&&,                                          ,,&&&&&,&,
&,&&,,,,&,              but i'm tired.              ,&,,,,&&&,
&&,&,,,&&&                                          &&,,,&,,&&
,&&&,,&,,&                    ,                     ,&,,&&,&,,
&,,&,&&,&&                 ~~»*»~~                  &&,&,&&&,,
&,&&&,&&,,                    ,                     ,&&&&,,&,&
&&,,&&,&,&                                          &,,,&,&&&,
,&,&,&&&&& this  can  happen if you wander too far, &,,&&&,,&&
&&&&&,,,,, i guess?  i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless &,&,,&,&,&
,,,,&,,,,,              when dreaming?              &&&,&&&&&,
,,,&&,,,,, i imagine a prick  on  the nose,  that's ,,&&,,,,&,
,,&,&,,,,& what  these are. like you do with  a cat ,&,&,,,&&,
,&&&&,,,&& who  comes to close  to your sandwich... &&&&,,&,&,
&,,,&,,&,&                                          ,,,&,&&&&,
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,,&,,&&,,,                                          &,&&,&&,&,