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,@,@@,@@,,             ,.\$#@####@#$\.,             @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@         ,,,..~$@ dreams @$~..,,,         @,,@,@,@,@
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,@,,@,,@,@                   ,.,                    @,,@,@,@,@
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,@,,@,,@,@         internal visionary state         @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                                          @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@            the spirit travels            @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                                          @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@             ,.\$#@####@#$\.,             @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                    ,~,                   @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                                          @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                  a cost                  @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                (anecdote)                @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                                          @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                    ..                    @,,@,@,@,@
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,@,,@,,@,@ i   wake  suddenly,  and  for  a  second @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, everything is completely calm  and  dead @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, slowly  start   to   piece  together  my @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@        consciousness and my body.        @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                                          @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ then  the  fear  hits  me  and  i   feel @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,    acutely sick. something is ~wrong~.   @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                                          @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                    ,,                    @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                                          @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, there are circles  and crosses inscribed @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ all over my  vision, pressing  in, being @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, almost hostile. i  can feel them squirm, @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@     their internal logic changing and    @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, grinding trenches in my mind.  it's like @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ language,  sentences i  can't hide from, @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, forcefully  transcribed  in my mind, and @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@           doing damage there.            @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                                          @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ then i  realize  i can't  hear  anything @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,     because there's something there      @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@    already, droning everything out, a    @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, rapid  melody,  almost  caustic  in it's @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@        particular microtonality.         @,,@,@,@,@
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,@,,@,,@,@                    ..                    @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                                          @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ my  surroundings are entirely calm. it's @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,             almost mocking.              @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                                          @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, i  feel helpless,  but  i  must  try  to @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ escape.  to crawl on the floor searching @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, relief, such  is my nature. turning  the @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@    lights on does nothing... getting     @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,  outside does nothing... drinking water  @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ does noting...  but  time does  -  after @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ doubting  anything of  this happened  in @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,             the first place.             @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                                          @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, my eyes are still tense though,  scared. @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ i    don't    know    what    to   make. @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                                          @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@              but i'm tired.              @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                                          @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                     ,                    @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                 ..~\~..                  @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@                     ,                    @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,,                                          @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ this can happen if  you  wander too far, @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, i  guess? i  shouldn't  be  so  reckless @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@              when dreaming?              @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, i  imagine  a  prick on the nose, that's @,@@,@,@,@
,@,,@,,@,@ what these are. like you  do  with a cat @,,@,@,@,@
,@,@@,@@,, who  comes  to close to your sandwich... @,@@,@,@,@
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