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.&&.&&...& something's  inside  of  me  and  i know &..&&.&.&.
&.&&.&..&& this  because  of  how   nice  it  feels &.&.&&&&&.
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.&&..&&&.. \\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\ ...&...&..
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&&&&&.&&.& there are brown spots on my  hands. they .&.&.&.&.&
....&&.&&.    are moving, growing, disappearing,    &&&&&&&&&.
...&.&&.&. appearing  again. this is almost erotic. ........&.
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.&..&&...& there is a spy in  my eyes, installed to ......&.&.
&&.&.&..&& identify these spots  and to  give me an .....&&&&.
.&&&&&.&.&     appropriate reaction (positive).     ....&...&&
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&...&....& when i gather all my  willpower, and set ..&.&.&&&.
&..&&...&. it   ablaze   all   at  once,  the  most .&&&&&..&&
&.&.&..&&. resistance i can muster is indifference. &....&.&..
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