something's  inside  of  me and  i  know 
 this   because  of  how  nice  it  feels 
                                          
  
                                          
 there are brown spots on  my hands. they 
    are moving, growing, disappearing,    
 appearing  again. this is almost erotic. 
                                          
 there is a spy in my eyes, installed  to 
 identify these spots and to  give  me an 
     appropriate reaction (positive).     
                                          
 when i gather  all my willpower, and set 
 it   ablaze  all   at   once,  the  most 
 resistance i can muster is indifference.