i fall  asleep in the  wrong  throat and 
 is not so much dreaming  as being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
            big halls, arcades,           
         filled with characters.          
                                          
 i get instructions for them, for what  i 
 must  imagine them doing or saying. they 
 have  some agency,  but  not  while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into my  mind,  spoken  from  a  god, or 
             false demiurge.              
                                          
 sometimes i'm too slow  and fail to make 
 them  do   what  i'm  instructed  before 
 time's out, and  then they get punished. 
                                          
 one of  them  got his vocabulary  shrunk 
 down to  only the word he failed  to say 
      (roofs? rufus?), many were just     
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all   was    very   stressful   and 
 repulsive. it felt like a  nightmare, or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since