party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower  curtains drawn. floor full 
 of  dirty  clothes, of garbage, and as i 
 start to  unzip my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right  forever. what i don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second  - they  ask me: "when 
 you  said the  world egg was  your ideal 
 body  type, did you  mean  it"? i answer 
 "not really, but i  can  act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter  and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom