i fall asleep in  the wrong  throat  and 
 is not so much dreaming as  being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
           big halls, arcades,            
         filled with characters.          
                                          
 i  get instructions for them, for what i 
 must imagine  them doing or saying. they 
 have  some  agency,  but  not while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into my  mind, spoken  from  a  god,  or 
              false demiurge.             
                                          
 sometimes i'm  too slow and fail to make 
 them  do   what  i'm  instructed  before 
 time's out, and  then they get punished. 
                                          
 one  of them  got his vocabulary  shrunk 
 down to only the word he  failed  to say 
     (roofs? rufus?), many were just      
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all    was   very   stressful   and 
 repulsive. it felt like a nightmare,  or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since