i fall  asleep  in the wrong throat  and 
 is not so  much dreaming as being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
           big halls, arcades,            
         filled with characters.          
                                          
 i  get instructions for them, for what i 
 must  imagine them doing or saying. they 
 have some  agency,  but  not  while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into  my mind,  spoken from  a  god,  or 
             false demiurge.              
                                          
 sometimes i'm too  slow and fail to make 
 them   do  what  i'm  instructed  before 
 time's  out, and then they get punished. 
                                          
 one of  them got his  vocabulary  shrunk 
 down  to only the word  he failed to say 
      (roofs? rufus?), many were just     
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all   was    very   stressful   and 
 repulsive. it felt like a  nightmare, or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since