i fall asleep in  the  wrong  throat and 
 is not so much dreaming as being  forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
            big halls, arcades,           
         filled with characters.          
                                          
 i  get instructions for them, for what i 
 must imagine them doing  or saying. they 
 have  some  agency,  but  not  while i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into  my mind,  spoken from  a  god,  or 
             false demiurge.              
                                          
 sometimes i'm too slow and fail  to make 
 them  do  what  i'm  instructed   before 
 time's out, and then they  get punished. 
                                          
 one of  them got  his vocabulary  shrunk 
 down to  only the  word he failed to say 
     (roofs? rufus?), many were just      
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all   was   very    stressful   and 
 repulsive. it  felt like a nightmare, or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since