i fall asleep  in the wrong  throat  and 
 is  not so much dreaming as being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
            big halls, arcades,           
          filled with characters.         
                                          
 i get  instructions for them, for what i 
 must imagine them  doing or saying. they 
 have  some  agency,  but not  while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into  my mind,  spoken  from  a  god, or 
             false demiurge.              
                                          
 sometimes i'm  too slow and fail to make 
 them  do  what  i'm  instructed   before 
 time's  out, and then they get punished. 
                                          
 one of  them  got  his vocabulary shrunk 
 down to  only the word he  failed to say 
     (roofs? rufus?), many were just      
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all   was   very    stressful   and 
 repulsive. it felt like a nightmare,  or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since