i fall asleep  in the wrong  throat  and 
 is not so much dreaming as  being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
           big halls, arcades,            
          filled with characters.         
                                          
 i get instructions for them, for  what i 
 must imagine them doing or saying.  they 
 have  some  agency, but  not  while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into  my mind,  spoken from  a  god,  or 
             false demiurge.              
                                          
 sometimes  i'm too slow and fail to make 
 them  do  what  i'm  instructed   before 
 time's out, and  then they get punished. 
                                          
 one  of  them got his  vocabulary shrunk 
 down to only the word  he  failed to say 
      (roofs? rufus?), many were just     
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it    all   was   very   stressful   and 
 repulsive. it felt like a nightmare,  or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since