i fall asleep  in  the wrong throat  and 
 is not so much dreaming  as being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
           big halls, arcades,            
         filled with characters.          
                                          
 i get instructions for them,  for what i 
 must imagine them  doing or saying. they 
 have  some agency,  but  not  while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into  my  mind, spoken  from  a  god, or 
              false demiurge.             
                                          
 sometimes i'm too slow  and fail to make 
 them  do  what  i'm  instructed   before 
 time's out, and  then they get punished. 
                                          
 one  of them  got  his vocabulary shrunk 
 down  to only  the word he failed to say 
      (roofs? rufus?), many were just     
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all    was   very   stressful   and 
 repulsive. it felt like a nightmare,  or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since