i fall asleep in  the  wrong throat  and 
 is not so  much dreaming as being forced 
         to imagine a scenario...         
                                          
                      
  
  
  
                      
                                          
           big halls, arcades,            
         filled with characters.          
                                          
 i get instructions for them,  for what i 
 must imagine  them doing or saying. they 
 have some  agency,  but  not  while  i'm 
   looking. the instructions are beamed   
 into  my  mind,  spoken from  a  god, or 
             false demiurge.              
                                          
 sometimes i'm too  slow and fail to make 
 them  do   what  i'm  instructed  before 
 time's out,  and then they get punished. 
                                          
 one  of  them got  his vocabulary shrunk 
 down to only the word  he  failed to say 
      (roofs? rufus?), many were just     
            physically maimed.            
                                          
 it   all   was   very    stressful   and 
 repulsive. it felt like a nightmare,  or 
               fever dream.               
                                          
 i   haven't   tried   to   sleep   since