party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty  clothes,  of garbage, and as i 
 start  to unzip my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be  contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever. what  i  don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per second  - they  ask me:  "when 
 you said the world egg  was  your  ideal 
 body type, did you  mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom