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#§§«.,,,,, § mirage class goth gf § ,,,,,.«§§#
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#@#§*§*«., i used to be a goth, in my youth, doing ,.«*§*§#@#
§****§*«., crimes mostly from or in my beloved and ,.«*§****§
#@#§*§*«., trusted car, and sometimes my mothers ,.«*§*§#@#
§§«««.,,,, barn. we lived just outside town, a ,,,,.«««§§
§§§§*«.,,, grove at the end of a dirt road, and ,,,.«*§§§§
###§*§*«., the barn was placed so you could just ,.«*§*§###
@##§*§*«., make out the surrounding fields through ,.«*§*§##@
#§§*«.,,,, the trees. ,,,,.«*§§#
##@§*§*«., ,.«*§*§@##
#@#§*§*«., my car was black and loud, both the ,.«*§*§#@#
#§§§**.,,, engine and the way the parts didn't ,,,.**§§§#
#*§*..,,,, really stick together. i took my ,,,,..*§*#
§§§*..,,,, crimefriend for rides, in the dark, the ,,,,..*§§§
#@#§*§*«., eternal dark that seemed to surround ,.«*§*§#@#
@§§**«««., us. she seemed to cast this veil over ,.«««**§§@
#@#§*§*«., everything. her black skirt reached to ,.«*§*§#@#
#***«,,,,, her knees but then somehow also back ,,,,,«***#
#@#§*§*«., around, enveloping all my memories of ,.«*§*§#@#
@@#§*§*«., our time together. ,.«*§*§#@@
@##§*§*«., ,.«*§*§##@
@#§§*§*«., there was blood everywhere. sometimes ,.«*§*§§#@
#@#§*§*«., the blood was her red lipstick or her ,.«*§*§#@#
#@#§*§*«., checkered shirt. she was on television. ,.«*§*§#@#
@#***««.,, we did crime, and we made weird ,,.««***#@
##@§*§*«., structures in the barn, tall pillars of ,.«*§*§@##
#@#§*§*«., dark wood, ladders and plateaus, fires ,.«*§*§#@#
@§§*§*«.,, and fairy lights. we would sleep there ,,.«*§*§§@
###§*§*«., and drink there and she would go in the ,.«*§*§###
###§*§*«., television. ,.«*§*§###
§§§§*§*«., ,.«*§*§§§§
##@#§§*«., and then the sun came out, and she went ,.«*§§#@##
@@#§*§*«., away. everything changed... i yearned, ,.«*§*§#@@
###§*§*«., and the world became dull around me. ,.«*§*§###
#@#§*§*«., ,.«*§*§#@#
@##§*§*«., i stopped doing crime, except when ,.«*§*§##@
#§§§§*..,, necessarry. things somehow seemed like ,,..*§§§§#
#§§*.,,,,, they were allright, moulded in place, ,,,,,.*§§#
#@#§*§*«., and i loathed it ------ i missed her ,.«*§*§#@#
##§§*§*«., so much. ,.«*§*§§##
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#@#§*§*«., ,.«*§*§#@#
#@#§*§*«., i searched for her, but nobody had any ,.«*§*§#@#
§****«.,,, memories of her. not so much of me ,,,.«****§
###§*§*«., either, from the time we were together. ,.«*§*§###
#§*§*.,,,, my mother said i kept to myself in the ,,,,.*§*§#
@@#§*§*«., barn, or in the car. ,.«*§*§#@@
§§***§*«., ,.«*§***§§
§§§*.,,,,, sometimes i could still see her ,,,,,.*§§§
##@#*§*«., flashing by on the tv in the barn. ,.«*§*#@##
§§««.,,,,, everything was black then, for a ,,,,,.««§§
###§*§*«., moment. i remembered her laugh and knew ,.«*§*§###
#@#§*§*«., we had done crimes together, that it ,.«*§*§#@#
@@#§*§*«., had been real... ,.«*§*§#@@
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#@#§*§*«., «««««.., ,..««««« ,.«*§*§#@#
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§§§«.,,,,, i died by getting shot in the head ,,,,,.«§§§
#@#§*§*«., while ramming the fence to a military ,.«*§*§#@#
#§§§§«,,,, facility. by this time they had been ,,,,«§§§§#
§*§§**.,,, chasing me for days. i lost control ,,,.**§§*§
###§*§*«., over the car, crashed it into a rock ,.«*§*§###
#@#§*§*«., wall and flew out the windshield. ,.«*§*§#@#
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##@§*§*«., and then i got up, and looked around. ,.«*§*§@##
@§§««,,,,, it was dark, where it previously had ,,,,,««§§@
##@§*§*«., been a bright day. around me where ,.«*§*§@##
##@§*§*«., dozens of crashed cars, all my car, ,.«*§*§@##
§§««.,,,,, some on fire. ,,,,,.««§§
#@#§*§*«., ,.«*§*§#@#
§§«.,,,,,, the ground was sticky, red. ,,,,,,.«§§
#§§«,,,,,, ,,,,,,«§§#
##§*§§*«., and then i realized that i knew this ,.«*§§*§##
@@#§*§*«., darkness. i knew the way the sky ,.«*§*§#@@
#@#§*§*«., touched the ground. this was her doing! ,.«*§*§#@#
#§§*«,,,,, she was here! ,,,,,«*§§#
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