party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage,  and as i 
 start to unzip my  pants,  she steps out 
 of   the   shower   and   pushes  me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be  contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what i  don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second - they  ask  me: "when 
 you said the world egg  was  your  ideal 
 body type,  did you  mean it"?  i answer 
 "not  really, but i  can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom