party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as  i 
 start to unzip my pants,  she  steps out 
 of  the   shower   and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien]  who would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times  per second -  they ask me:  "when 
 you said  the  world egg was your  ideal 
 body  type, did you mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom