party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage,  and as i 
 start  to unzip  my pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish   to   be  contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times per second -  they  ask  me: "when 
 you  said the  world egg was  your ideal 
 body type, did  you  mean it"? i  answer 
 "not really, but i  can act like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of the  encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom