always  tears in  my eyes when using the 
                 machine.                 
                                          
 i don't  think  it's  hormonal overload. 
 there's  no  grief  or joy  as  my water 
 rolls  down my  face. i  notice  nothing 
 until my chin is  wet. wipe it off  with 
 the back of my  hand. but i usually keep 
            crying for a while.           
                                          
 i theorize some  kind  of  resonance  in 
   the neural interface; some saturation  
 signal being tripped? the connection  is 
        imperfect and often induces       
  single-sense hallucinations. acute but  
 hollow  hunger.  sand  grains  under  my 
  fingertips. strange tastes and scents.  
                                          
 and  i  mean,  maybe  it  isn't  to  far 
 fetched  that  something  like  that can 
  cause autonomous reactions? dry mouth.  
    finger spasms. opened tear ducts.