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..:~:†%#¶# now,  usually i feel good  (maybe?), but #¶#%†:~:..
...:~:†%#¶ this  time  of confusion  also leads  to ¶#%†:~:...
..:~:†%#¶# all  analyzes  ending in  "useless"  - i #¶#%†:~:..
.:~:†%#¶## was  being bothered by  something  in  a ##¶#%†:~:.
..:~:†%#¶# song or  movie  or book, so i think, how #¶#%†:~:..
...:~:†%#¶ would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the ¶#%†:~:...
..:~:†%#¶# purpose  of this process, what  does  it #¶#%†:~:..
.:~:†%#¶## consist  of...? and through the  process ##¶#%†:~:.
..:~:†%#¶# more and  more  pieces  falls off  until #¶#%†:~:..
...:~:†%#¶     i'm standing there with nothing.     ¶#%†:~:...
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.:~:†%#¶## reductionist hell -                      ##¶#%†:~:.
..:~:†%#¶# i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        #¶#%†:~:..
...:~:†%#¶ bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    ¶#%†:~:...
..:~:†%#¶# abstract they are, the things, until     #¶#%†:~:..
.:~:†%#¶## they cease to be things at all           ##¶#%†:~:.
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...:~:†%#¶ are we just stacked triangles? there is  ¶#%†:~:...
..:~:†%#¶# nothing i can do with triangles. they    #¶#%†:~:..
.:~:†%#¶## can not shelter me in any meaningful     ##¶#%†:~:.
..:~:†%#¶# sense.                                   #¶#%†:~:..
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..:~:†%#¶# and when i can't even anchor myself,     #¶#%†:~:..
.:~:†%#¶## when i am nothing but the question, it   ##¶#%†:~:.
..:~:†%#¶# feels like it can all slip through my    #¶#%†:~:..
...:~:†%#¶ fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    ¶#%†:~:...
..:~:†%#¶# was after that.                          #¶#%†:~:..
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