Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really  Do Not Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To Ruin  All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A  Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just FieldS  And  Motion. 
 Now  And  Then I Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think  It  Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.