Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking   To    Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not Like, And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear  This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.