Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really  Do  Not Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.