Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was    Thinking   To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And  Then I Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It Has  To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.