Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just FieldS  And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This  Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.