Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not  Know How  Useful They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times At  Least,  And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To  Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.