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=^,,,,,,,, i   was   thinking    to   stop    doing ,,,,,,,,^=
†=^,,,,,,, hallucinogens in  the winter  because  i ,,,,,,,^=†
^†=^,,,,,, do  not know  how  useful they have been ,,,,,,^=†^
$^†=^,,,,, anyway?  i  get  so  tense when  i  take ,,,,,^=†^$
£$^†=^,,,, them,  the last few times at least,  and ,,,,^=†^$£
#£$^†=^,,, there are plenty of side  effects that i ,,,^=†^$£#
##£$^†=^,, really  do not  like,  and there will be ,,^=†^$£##
###£$^†=^,   associations with these mini-anxiety   ,^=†^$£###
##£$^†=^,, attacks  with  random   things  that   i ,,^=†^$£##
#£$^†=^,,, happen  to see...  for  example,  for  a ,,,^=†^$£#
£$^†=^,,,, long time  i  could  not see  a  certain ,,,,^=†^$£
$^†=^,,,,, kind  of  leaf  without getting  anxious ,,,,,^=†^$
^†=^,,,,,, ... and i should  avoid to  ruin all the ,,,,,,^=†^
†=^,,,,,,,             seasons this way.            ,,,,,,,^=†
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,,,,,,,,,,    hmm, recently my visual phenomena     ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, increased or  at least  the  burn-ins in ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, the  eyes,  and   sometimes   stuff   is ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, breathing  now,  they   did  not  do  it ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, before. but  maybe i just drank too much ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, coffee.  maybe i'm scared and making all ,,,,,,,,,,
^,,,,,,,,,             these things up.             ,,,,,,,,,^
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$^†=^,,,,, it  comes to  me  sometimes  that  shit, ,,,,,^=†^$
£$^†=^,,,, what a  load of concepts this  "reality" ,,,,^=†^$£
#£$^†=^,,, consists  of,  and  how  vague they  are ,,,^=†^$£#
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#£$^†=^,,, if  i do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty ,,,^=†^$£#
£$^†=^,,,, hours,  it will no longer be dark when i ,,,,^=†^$£
$^†=^,,,,, close  my   eyes,  not   actually  cev's ,,,,,^=†^$
^†=^,,,,,, though,  rather just fields and  motion. ,,,,,,^=†^
†=^,,,,,,, now and  then i hear  this sound (a real ,,,,,,,^=†
=^,,,,,,,,    sound (i think)), resembling some     ,,,,,,,,^=
^,,,,,,,,,  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ,,,,,,,,,^
,,,,,,,,,, and it is  always unpleasant,  i  become ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, so stressful, but  i think it  has to do ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,         with the novelty. i hope.        ,,,,,,,,,,
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