Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking   To    Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At  Least The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So  Stressful, But  I Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.