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,,,,,,,,,« i   was    thinking   to   stop    doing «,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, hallucinogens  in  the winter  because i ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,« do not  know how useful  they  have been «,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,«* anyway?  i  get  so tense  when  i  take *«,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,«** them,  the last few times at least,  and **«,,,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§ there  are plenty of side effects that i §**«,,,,,,
,,,,,«**§§ really do  not  like,  and there will be §§**«,,,,,
,,,,«**§§@   associations with these mini-anxiety   @§§**«,,,,
,,,«**§§@# attacks   with   random  things  that  i #@§§**«,,,
,,«**§§@## happen  to  see...  for  example, for  a ##@§§**«,,
,,,«**§§@# long  time  i could  not see  a  certain #@§§**«,,,
,,,,«**§§@ kind  of  leaf  without getting  anxious @§§**«,,,,
,,,,,«**§§ ... and  i should avoid  to ruin all the §§**«,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§             seasons this way.            §**«,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,,    hmm, recently my visual phenomena     ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,« increased or  at least  the  burn-ins in «,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,«* the   eyes,  and   sometimes  stuff   is *«,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,«** breathing  now,  they   did  not  do  it **«,,,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§ before. but  maybe i just drank too much §**«,,,,,,
,,,,,«**§§ coffee. maybe i'm scared  and making all §§**«,,,,,
,,,,«**§§@             these things up.             @§§**«,,,,
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,,,,«**§§@ it  comes  to  me  sometimes that  shit, @§§**«,,,,
,,,,,«**§§ what  a load of  concepts this "reality" §§**«,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§ consists of,  and  how  vague  they  are §**«,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, if  i  do  not  sleep  for about  twenty ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,« hours, it will no longer be dark when  i «,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,«* close  my   eyes,  not  actually   cev's *«,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,«** though, rather  just  fields and motion. **«,,,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§ now and then i hear this  sound (a  real §**«,,,,,,
,,,,,«**§§    sound (i think)), resembling some     §§**«,,,,,
,,,,«**§§@  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  @§§**«,,,,
,,,«**§§@# and  it is  always  unpleasant, i become #@§§**«,,,
,,«**§§@## so stressful, but i think  it has  to do ##@§§**«,,
,,,«**§§@#         with the novelty. i hope.        #@§§**«,,,
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