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,,,«**§§@# #@§§**«,,,
,,«**§§@## ##@§§**«,,
,,,«**§§@# #@§§**«,,,
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,,,,,«**§§ eh §§**«,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,« i was thinking to stop doing «,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, hallucinogens in the winter because i ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,« do not know how useful they have been «,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,«* anyway? i get so tense when i take *«,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,«** them, the last few times at least, and **«,,,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§ there are plenty of side effects that i §**«,,,,,,
,,,,,«**§§ really do not like, and there will be §§**«,,,,,
,,,,«**§§@ associations with these mini-anxiety @§§**«,,,,
,,,«**§§@# attacks with random things that i #@§§**«,,,
,,«**§§@## happen to see... for example, for a ##@§§**«,,
,,,«**§§@# long time i could not see a certain #@§§**«,,,
,,,,«**§§@ kind of leaf without getting anxious @§§**«,,,,
,,,,,«**§§ ... and i should avoid to ruin all the §§**«,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§ seasons this way. §**«,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, hmm, recently my visual phenomena ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,« increased or at least the burn-ins in «,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,«* the eyes, and sometimes stuff is *«,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,«** breathing now, they did not do it **«,,,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§ before. but maybe i just drank too much §**«,,,,,,
,,,,,«**§§ coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all §§**«,,,,,
,,,,«**§§@ these things up. @§§**«,,,,
,,,«**§§@# #@§§**«,,,
,,«**§§@## « ##@§§**«,,
,,,«**§§@# #@§§**«,,,
,,,,«**§§@ it comes to me sometimes that shit, @§§**«,,,,
,,,,,«**§§ what a load of concepts this "reality" §§**«,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§ consists of, and how vague they are §**«,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, if i do not sleep for about twenty ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,« hours, it will no longer be dark when i «,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,«* close my eyes, not actually cev's *«,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,«** though, rather just fields and motion. **«,,,,,,,
,,,,,,«**§ now and then i hear this sound (a real §**«,,,,,,
,,,,,«**§§ sound (i think)), resembling some §§**«,,,,,
,,,,«**§§@ "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. @§§**«,,,,
,,,«**§§@# and it is always unpleasant, i become #@§§**«,,,
,,«**§§@## so stressful, but i think it has to do ##@§§**«,,
,,,«**§§@# with the novelty. i hope. #@§§**«,,,
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