party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn.  floor full 
 of  dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as i 
 start to unzip my pants,  she steps  out 
 of   the   shower  and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be  contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second  - they ask me:  "when 
 you  said  the  world egg was your ideal 
 body type,  did  you  mean it"? i answer 
 "not really, but i can  act  like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom