Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter  Because I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ...  And I  Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This Sound  (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.