EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS   THINKING   TO    STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN THE WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO NOT KNOW HOW  USEFUL THEY  HAVE  BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM,  THE  LAST FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE  PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY  DO NOT  LIKE,  AND THERE WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM  THINGS  THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME I  COULD  NOT  SEE  A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO  RUIN  ALL THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     
 INCREASED  OR AT LEAST  THE  BURN-INS IN 
 THE  EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY   DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK  TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND  MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS,  IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY   EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER JUST  FIELDS AND MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN I  HEAR  THIS SOUND (A REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT  IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I  BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL, BUT  I THINK  IT HAS TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.