Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things  That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I  Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.