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¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨                    EH                    ¨¨§§§¨¨§§¨
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¨§¨¨§§§§§§                     -                    §§¨§§§§§§§
§§¨§¨¨¨¨¨§                                          ¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨§
¨§§§¨¨¨¨§§ I   WAS    THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING §¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨
§¨¨§¨¨¨§¨§ HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE WINTER  BECAUSE I §§§¨¨¨¨§§¨
§¨§§¨¨§§§¨ DO NOT  KNOW  HOW  USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN ¨¨§¨¨¨§¨§§
§§¨§¨§¨¨§¨ ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN I  TAKE ¨§§¨¨§§§¨¨
¨§§§§§¨§§¨ THEM, THE LAST  FEW TIMES AT  LEAST, AND §¨§¨§¨¨§¨§
§¨¨¨¨§§¨§§ THERE ARE PLENTY  OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I §§§§§¨§§§§
§¨¨¨§¨§§¨¨ REALLY DO  NOT  LIKE, AND THERE  WILL BE ¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨
§¨¨§§§¨§¨¨   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   ¨¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§
§¨§¨¨§§§¨§ ATTACKS  WITH   RANDOM   THINGS  THAT  I ¨¨§§§§¨¨§¨
§§§¨§¨¨§§§ HAPPEN TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A ¨§¨¨¨§¨§§§
¨¨§§§¨§¨¨¨ LONG  TIME I COULD  NOT  SEE  A  CERTAIN §§¨¨§§§¨¨¨
¨§¨¨§§§¨¨¨ KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS ¨§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨
§§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨ ...  AND  I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE §§§§¨§§¨¨¨
¨§§§¨§§¨¨¨             SEASONS THIS WAY.            ¨¨¨§§¨§¨¨§
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§¨§¨§§§¨¨§                     -                    ¨§§§¨¨§§¨¨
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¨¨¨§¨§§§¨¨     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    §¨§§§§§§§¨
¨¨§§§¨¨§¨§ INCREASED  OR  AT LEAST  THE BURN-INS IN §§¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨
¨§¨¨§¨§§§¨ THE   EYES,  AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS ¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§¨
§§¨§§§¨¨§§ BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT §§¨¨¨¨§¨§¨
¨§§¨¨§¨§¨¨ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE  I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH ¨§¨¨¨§§§§§
§¨§¨§§§§¨¨ COFFEE. MAYBE  I'M SCARED AND MAKING ALL §§¨¨§¨¨¨¨§
§§§§¨¨¨§¨§             THESE THINGS UP.             ¨§¨§§¨¨¨§¨
¨¨¨§¨¨§§§¨                                          §§§¨§¨¨§§§
¨¨§§¨§¨¨§§                    -                     ¨¨§§§¨§¨¨§
¨§¨§§§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨¨§§§¨§§
§§§¨¨§§§§§ IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT SHIT, §§¨§¨¨§§¨§
¨¨§¨§¨¨¨¨§ WHAT  A LOAD OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" ¨§§§¨§¨§§¨
¨§§§§¨¨¨§§ CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW VAGUE  THEY  ARE §¨¨§§§§¨§¨
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§¨¨§§¨§§¨¨                    -                     §§§¨¨§¨¨§§
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§§§§¨§§§¨¨ IF  I DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY ¨§§§¨§§§¨§
¨¨¨§§¨¨§¨§ HOURS, IT WILL NO  LONGER BE DARK WHEN I §¨¨§§¨¨§§¨
¨¨§¨§¨§§§§ CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY   CEV'S §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§§§§§¨¨¨¨ THOUGH, RATHER  JUST  FIELDS AND MOTION. §§§§§§§§§¨
§¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨ NOW AND THEN  I HEAR  THIS SOUND (A REAL ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨
§¨¨¨§§¨¨¨§    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§§
§¨¨§¨§¨¨§§  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  ¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨
§¨§§§§¨§¨§ AND  IT  IS ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME ¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§
§§¨¨¨§§§§¨ SO  STRESSFUL, BUT I  THINK IT HAS TO DO ¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨¨§¨¨¨§¨        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.         ¨¨¨§§§§§§§
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