Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not  Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really  Do Not Like,  And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think  It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.