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###@$†\=~.                    eh                    .~=\†$@###
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###@$†\=~.                     =                    .~=\†$@###
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###@$†\=~. i    was   thinking    to   stop   doing .~=\†$@###
###@$†\=~. hallucinogens  in  the winter because  i .~=\†$@###
#@$\\==~~. do not  know how useful  they have  been .~~==\\$@#
@††\~..... anyway?  i  get  so  tense when  i  take .....~\††@
@†\~...... them, the last few  times at  least, and ......~\†@
@@$$\\~... there are plenty of side  effects that i ...~\\$$@@
###@$†\=~. really  do not like, and there  will  be .~=\†$@###
#$\\==....   associations with these mini-anxiety   ....==\\$#
#@†\\\=... attacks  with  random   things  that   i ...=\\\†@#
@$\\~..... happen  to  see...  for  example,  for a .....~\\$@
#@@$$†\=~. long time  i  could  not see  a  certain .~=\†$$@@#
###@$†\=~. kind  of leaf  without  getting  anxious .~=\†$@###
###@$†\=~. ...  and i  should avoid to ruin all the .~=\†$@###
@$$$$†\=~.             seasons this way.            .~=\†$$$$@
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###@$†\=~.                     =                    .~=\†$@###
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###@$†\=~.     hmm, recently my visual phenomena    .~=\†$@###
#@†==..... increased  or at  least  the burn-ins in .....==†@#
#$†\\\=~.. the  eyes,   and   sometimes   stuff  is ..~=\\\†$#
###@$†\=~. breathing  now,  they  did   not  do  it .~=\†$@###
###@$†\=~. before. but maybe i just drank too  much .~=\†$@###
###@$†\=~. coffee. maybe i'm  scared and making all .~=\†$@###
###@$†\=~.             these things up.             .~=\†$@###
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###@$†\=~.                    =                     .~=\†$@###
@$†==~....                                          ....~==†$@
@†\=~..... it  comes to  me  sometimes  that  shit, .....~=\†@
###@$†\=~. what a load  of concepts  this "reality" .~=\†$@###
@$$††=~~.. consists  of,  and  how  vague  they are ..~~=††$$@
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##$$†==... if  i  do not  sleep  for  about  twenty ...==†$$##
##@$$†\=~. hours, it will  no longer be dark when i .~=\†$$@##
###@$†\=~. close  my   eyes,  not   actually  cev's .~=\†$@###
#@$$$†\=~. though, rather  just fields  and motion. .~=\†$$$@#
###@$†\=~. now and then  i hear this  sound (a real .~=\†$@###
###@$†\=~.     sound (i think)), resembling some    .~=\†$@###
###@$†\=~.  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  .~=\†$@###
###@$†\=~. and it  is  always unpleasant,  i become .~=\†$@###
####@$†\~. so stressful,  but  i think it has to do .~\†$@####
@†\~......         with the novelty. i hope.        ......~\†@
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