EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS   THINKING   TO    STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS IN  THE WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO  NOT KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY  HAVE  BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE LAST  FEW  TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT  I 
 REALLY  DO NOT  LIKE, AND  THERE WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM  THINGS  THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG TIME  I  COULD  NOT  SEE  A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I SHOULD AVOID TO  RUIN ALL  THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED OR  AT LEAST THE  BURN-INS  IN 
 THE   EYES,  AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,   THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST  DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN  I 
 CLOSE  MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY   CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER  JUST FIELDS  AND MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN I  HEAR THIS  SOUND (A REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT IS ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT,  I  BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL, BUT  I THINK  IT HAS TO DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.