Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How  Useful They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And Then  I Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think It  Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.