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@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨                    eh                    @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
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@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ i   was    thinking    to   stop   doing @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ hallucinogens  in the  winter because  i @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ do not  know  how  useful they have been @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ anyway?  i  get  so tense  when  i  take @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ them, the  last  few times at least, and @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ there  are plenty of side effects that i @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ really  do not  like, and there  will be @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨   associations with these mini-anxiety   @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ attacks  with   random  things   that  i @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ happen  to  see...  for example,  for  a @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ long  time  i could not  see  a  certain @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ kind  of  leaf without  getting  anxious @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ ... and i  should  avoid to ruin all the @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨            seasons this way.             @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
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@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨    hmm, recently my visual phenomena     @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ increased or at  least  the burn-ins  in @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ the   eyes,   and   sometimes  stuff  is @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ breathing  now,   they  did  not  do  it @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ before. but maybe i just drank too  much @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ coffee. maybe  i'm scared and making all @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨             these things up.             @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
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@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨                    ~                     @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
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@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ it  comes  to  me sometimes  that  shit, @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ what  a load of  concepts this "reality" @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ consists  of,  and  how  vague they  are @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
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@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ if  i  do not  sleep  for  about  twenty @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ hours, it will no longer be dark  when i @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ close  my   eyes,  not   actually  cev's @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ though, rather just  fields  and motion. @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ now and then i hear this  sound (a  real @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨    sound (i think)), resembling some     @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ and it  is always  unpleasant,  i become @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨ so stressful, but  i think it  has to do @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
@¨@¨@¨@¨@¨         with the novelty. i hope.        @¨@¨@¨@¨@¨
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