Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really Do Not Like, And  There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just FieldS  And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.