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..~†§&£### i    was    thinking   to   stop   doing ###£&§†~..
..~†§&£### hallucinogens  in the winter  because  i ###£&§†~..
..~†§&£### do  not  know how useful they  have been ###£&§†~..
......†&££ anyway?  i get  so  tense  when  i  take ££&†......
...~†††&&# them,  the last  few times at least, and #&&†††~...
....~§§&££ there are plenty of  side effects that i ££&§§~....
..~†§&£### really  do  not like, and  there will be ###£&§†~..
......†§§£   associations with these mini-anxiety   £§§†......
..~†§&£### attacks   with  random  things  that   i ###£&§†~..
.....†&£## happen  to  see... for  example,  for  a ##£&†.....
.....~†§£# long  time  i could  not  see a  certain #£§†~.....
..~†§&£### kind of  leaf  without  getting  anxious ###£&§†~..
..~†§&£### ... and i  should avoid to ruin  all the ###£&§†~..
.....~§&£#            seasons this way.             #£&§~.....
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.....~††&#    hmm, recently my visual phenomena     #&††~.....
..~†§&£### increased or at least  the  burn-ins  in ###£&§†~..
.....††&£# the   eyes,  and  sometimes   stuff   is #£&††.....
..~†§&#### breathing  now,  they   did  not  do  it ####&§†~..
...~†††§£# before. but  maybe i just drank too much #£§†††~...
..~†††&&&# coffee. maybe i'm scared and making  all #&&&†††~..
..~†§&£###             these things up.             ###£&§†~..
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..~†§&£### it comes  to  me  sometimes  that  shit, ###£&§†~..
..~§&£#### what a  load of concepts  this "reality" ####£&§~..
......~§&£ consists  of, and  how  vague  they  are £&§~......
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..~†§&££## if i  do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty ##££&§†~..
..~~~~§§&# hours, it will no longer be  dark when i #&§§~~~~..
......†§&# close   my  eyes,  not   actually  cev's #&§†......
......~~§£ though, rather  just fields  and motion. £§~~......
.....~†&£# now and  then i hear this sound (a  real #£&†~.....
..~†§&&&##     sound (i think)), resembling some    ##&&&§†~..
......†&£#  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  #£&†......
..~~††§§&# and  it is  always  unpleasant, i become #&§§††~~..
.....†&££# so stressful, but i  think it  has to do #££&†.....
.....†&&&#        with the novelty. i hope.         #&&&†.....
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