Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really  Do  Not  Like, And There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They   Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.