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#$$*=..... them, the  last  few times at least, and .....=*$$#
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##£#§$*=^. really do  not like, and  there will  be .^=*$§#£##
##£#§$*=^.   associations with these mini-anxiety   .^=*$§#£##
##£#§$*=^. attacks  with   random   things  that  i .^=*$§#£##
##£#§$*=^. happen  to see...  for  example,  for  a .^=*$§#£##
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##£#§$*=^. kind  of  leaf without  getting  anxious .^=*$§#£##
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##£#§$*=^. the  eyes,   and   sometimes  stuff   is .^=*$§#£##
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##£#§$*=^. coffee. maybe i'm  scared and making all .^=*$§#£##
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##£#§$*=^. it  comes  to  me sometimes  that  shit, .^=*$§#£##
##£#§$*=^. what a load  of concepts this  "reality" .^=*$§#£##
####§$*=^. consists  of,  and  how  vague they  are .^=*$§####
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##£#§$*=^. close   my  eyes,  not   actually  cev's .^=*$§#£##
##£#§$*=^. though,  rather just fields and  motion. .^=*$§#£##
#$*=^..... now  and then i hear this  sound (a real .....^=*$#
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###$$$*=^.  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  .^=*$$$###
##§§§$*=^. and it  is always  unpleasant,  i become .^=*$§§§##
##§$*==^.. so  stressful, but i think  it has to do ..^==*$§##
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