EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS   THINKING   TO    STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE WINTER BECAUSE  I 
 DO  NOT KNOW  HOW  USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE LAST  FEW  TIMES AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE  PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO  NOT  LIKE, AND  THERE WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM  THINGS  THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE... FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME I  COULD  NOT SEE  A  CERTAIN 
 KIND OF  LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ...  AND I  SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE 
            SEASONS THIS WAY.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     
 INCREASED  OR  AT  LEAST THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE   EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID   NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE.  BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING  ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK  WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY   CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER JUST FIELDS  AND  MOTION. 
 NOW  AND THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND  (A REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT  IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL,  BUT I THINK IT  HAS TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.