Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I  Should  Avoid To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I  Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.