Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My  Eyes,  Not   Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It  Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.