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##¨#¨#¨##¨ i was thinking to stop doing ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ hallucinogens in the winter because i ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ do not know how useful they have been ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ anyway? i get so tense when i take ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ them, the last few times at least, and ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ there are plenty of side effects that i ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ really do not like, and there will be ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ associations with these mini-anxiety ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ attacks with random things that i ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ happen to see... for example, for a ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ long time i could not see a certain ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ kind of leaf without getting anxious ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ ... and i should avoid to ruin all the ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ seasons this way. ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ hmm, recently my visual phenomena ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ increased or at least the burn-ins in ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ the eyes, and sometimes stuff is ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ breathing now, they did not do it ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ before. but maybe i just drank too much ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ these things up. ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ it comes to me sometimes that shit, ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ what a load of concepts this "reality" ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ consists of, and how vague they are ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ if i do not sleep for about twenty ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ hours, it will no longer be dark when i ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ close my eyes, not actually cev's ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ though, rather just fields and motion. ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ now and then i hear this sound (a real ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ sound (i think)), resembling some ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ and it is always unpleasant, i become ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ so stressful, but i think it has to do ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ with the novelty. i hope. ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
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