EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS    THINKING   TO   STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO NOT KNOW HOW  USEFUL  THEY  HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM,  THE LAST FEW TIMES  AT LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE  PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY  DO NOT LIKE, AND  THERE WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH  RANDOM   THINGS  THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I  COULD  NOT SEE A  CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND I SHOULD  AVOID TO RUIN ALL  THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED  OR  AT  LEAST THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE   EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF  IS 
 BREATHING   NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO  MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO  ME SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER  BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER JUST FIELDS  AND MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN I HEAR  THIS SOUND  (A REAL 
     SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME    
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND  IT IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL, BUT I  THINK IT HAS TO  DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.