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§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ I   WAS   THINKING   TO    STOP    DOING §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ HALLUCINOGENS IN  THE WINTER  BECAUSE  I §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ DO  NOT KNOW  HOW USEFUL  THEY HAVE BEEN §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN I  TAKE §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ THEM, THE LAST  FEW TIMES  AT LEAST, AND §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE  EFFECTS THAT I §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ REALLY DO  NOT  LIKE,  AND THERE WILL BE §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ ATTACKS   WITH   RANDOM  THINGS  THAT  I §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR EXAMPLE,  FOR  A §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ LONG  TIME  I  COULD NOT  SEE A  CERTAIN §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ ... AND  I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL  THE §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§             SEASONS THIS WAY.            §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§§¨§¨§¨§     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ INCREASED OR AT  LEAST THE  BURN-INS  IN §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ THE   EYES,  AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO  MUCH §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED  AND MAKING ALL §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§             THESE THINGS UP.             §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ IT  COMES  TO  ME SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ WHAT A  LOAD OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ CONSISTS  OF,  AND HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ IF  I DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER  BE DARK WHEN I §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ CLOSE  MY   EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY   CEV'S §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ THOUGH,  RATHER  JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ NOW AND  THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND (A  REAL §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§ AND IT IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT,  I  BECOME §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨§§¨§¨§¨§ SO  STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT  HAS TO DO §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
§¨¨§¨§¨§¨§        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.         §¨§¨§¨§¨§¨
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