Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not  Know How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then  I Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But  I Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.