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##@#£%*^~, i   was    thinking   to   stop    doing ,~^*%£#@##
£%%^~~,,,, hallucinogens  in the winter  because  i ,,,,~~^%%£
#@#£%*^~,, do  not know  how useful they  have been ,,~^*%£#@#
#@#£%*^~,, anyway?  i  get  so tense  when  i  take ,,~^*%£#@#
###£%*^~,, them, the last few  times at  least, and ,,~^*%£###
#%*~,,,,,, there are plenty of  side effects that i ,,,,,,~*%#
@#%*~,,,,, really  do not like, and  there will  be ,,,,,~*%#@
#@#£%*^~,,   associations with these mini-anxiety   ,,~^*%£#@#
#@#£%*^~,, attacks  with   random  things  that   i ,,~^*%£#@#
###£%*^~,, happen  to see...  for  example,  for  a ,,~^*%£###
@#££%*^~,, long time i  could  not  see  a  certain ,,~^*%££#@
#£%%%*^~,, kind  of  leaf without  getting  anxious ,,~^*%%%£#
@£££%*^~,, ... and i should avoid to  ruin all  the ,,~^*%£££@
£**^^,,,,,             seasons this way.            ,,,,,^^**£
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##@#£*^~,,     hmm, recently my visual phenomena    ,,~^*£#@##
£%**^^^~,, increased or  at least  the  burn-ins in ,,~^^^**%£
##@£%*^~,, the  eyes,   and   sometimes   stuff  is ,,~^*%£@##
#@#£%*^~,, breathing  now,  they  did   not  do  it ,,~^*%£#@#
£%%^,,,,,, before.  but maybe i just drank too much ,,,,,,^%%£
##%**~~,,, coffee. maybe i'm scared and  making all ,,,~~**%##
##£***^~,,             these things up.             ,,~^***£##
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##@#%*^~,, it  comes  to  me sometimes  that  shit, ,,~^*%#@##
@#%*~,,,,, what  a load of concepts  this "reality" ,,,,,~*%#@
#@#£%*^~,, consists  of, and  how  vague  they  are ,,~^*%£#@#
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@#%%%*^~,, if  i do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty ,,~^*%%%#@
#@#£%*^~,, hours, it will no longer be dark when  i ,,~^*%£#@#
@£%^^,,,,, close  my   eyes,  not   actually  cev's ,,,,,^^%£@
#@#£%*^~,, though, rather just fields  and  motion. ,,~^*%£#@#
£*~,,,,,,, now and then i  hear this sound  (a real ,,,,,,,~*£
##@#£%*^~,    sound (i think)), resembling some     ,~^*%£#@##
££*~,,,,,,  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ,,,,,,~*££
£*~,,,,,,, and it  is always  unpleasant, i  become ,,,,,,,~*£
@#££%*^~,, so  stressful, but  i think it has to do ,,~^*%££#@
#@#£%*^~,,         with the novelty. i hope.        ,,~^*%£#@#
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