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¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§                    EH                    §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
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¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§                    «                     §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
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¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ I    WAS   THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE WINTER  BECAUSE I §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ DO  NOT  KNOW HOW  USEFUL THEY HAVE BEEN §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ ANYWAY?  I GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ THEM, THE  LAST  FEW TIMES AT LEAST, AND §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT  I §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ REALLY  DO  NOT LIKE, AND THERE WILL  BE §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ ATTACKS  WITH  RANDOM   THINGS   THAT  I §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR EXAMPLE,  FOR  A §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ LONG TIME  I  COULD  NOT  SEE A  CERTAIN §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ ... AND I SHOULD  AVOID  TO RUIN ALL THE §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§            SEASONS THIS WAY.             §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
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¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ INCREASED  OR  AT LEAST THE  BURN-INS IN §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ THE   EYES,  AND   SOMETIMES   STUFF  IS §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO   IT §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ BEFORE.  BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§             THESE THINGS UP.             §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
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¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§                    «                     §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
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¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES THAT  SHIT, §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ WHAT A LOAD  OF  CONCEPTS THIS "REALITY" §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ CONSISTS  OF,  AND HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
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¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§                     «                    §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
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¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT TWENTY §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ HOURS, IT WILL  NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ CLOSE   MY  EYES,  NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ THOUGH, RATHER JUST  FIELDS AND  MOTION. §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ NOW AND  THEN I HEAR THIS SOUND  (A REAL §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§ AND IT IS  ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§ SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT  HAS  TO DO §¨§¨§§¨§¨§
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§§        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.         §¨§¨¨§¨§¨§
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