Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them,  The Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not  Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things   That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has To  Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.