Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really Do Not Like, And  There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things  That   I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not  See A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What  A Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No  Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.