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¨--**$§£@# hallucinogens  in  the winter because  i #@£§$**--¨
¨--***$$$§ do  not know how useful they  have  been §$$$***--¨
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¨------**§ them, the last  few times  at least, and §**------¨
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¨--**$§£@# really do  not  like, and  there will be #@£§$**--¨
¨--**$§£##   associations with these mini-anxiety   ##£§$**--¨
¨--**$$$§@ attacks  with  random   things  that   i @§$$$**--¨
¨--**$§£@# happen  to  see...  for  example,  for a #@£§$**--¨
¨¨¨¨¨--*§§ long time  i  could  not  see  a certain §§*--¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨--**§ kind  of  leaf without  getting  anxious §**--¨¨¨¨¨
¨--**$§£@# ... and i should  avoid to ruin all  the #@£§$**--¨
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¨--**$§£@@ increased or at  least the  burn-ins  in @@£§$**--¨
¨--**$§@## the   eyes,   and  sometimes   stuff  is ##@§$**--¨
¨--**$§£@# breathing  now,  they   did  not  do  it #@£§$**--¨
¨¨¨¨¨--**§ before. but maybe i just drank  too much §**--¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨-**$§ coffee. maybe  i'm scared and making all §$**-¨¨¨¨¨
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¨¨----**§@ what a  load of concepts  this "reality" @§**----¨¨
¨--**$§£@@ consists  of, and  how  vague  they  are @@£§$**--¨
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¨--**$§£@# hours, it will no  longer be dark when i #@£§$**--¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨-*$£ close   my  eyes,  not  actually   cev's £$*-¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨--*$§ though, rather  just fields and  motion. §$*--¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨--***§ now  and then i hear  this sound (a real §***--¨¨¨¨
¨--***$§§@    sound (i think)), resembling some     @§§$***--¨
¨--**$§£##  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ##£§$**--¨
¨¨¨----*$§ and it  is  always unpleasant,  i become §$*----¨¨¨
¨--**$§£@# so  stressful, but i  think it has to do #@£§$**--¨
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