Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid  To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just FieldS  And  Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear  This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.