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¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨                    EH                    §§§§§§§§§¨
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¨§§¨¨§§¨¨¨                    ~                     §§§§§§§¨¨¨
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¨§§§§§§¨¨¨ I    WAS   THINKING    TO   STOP   DOING §§§§§¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨§§§§¨¨§§ HALLUCINOGENS IN  THE WINTER  BECAUSE  I §§§§¨¨§§§§
¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨ DO NOT KNOW  HOW USEFUL  THEY  HAVE BEEN §§§¨¨¨¨§§¨
§§¨¨¨¨§§§§ ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I TAKE §§¨¨§§¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨§§¨¨§§§ THEM,  THE LAST FEW  TIMES AT LEAST, AND §¨¨¨¨¨¨§§¨
§§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§ THERE ARE PLENTY OF  SIDE EFFECTS THAT I ¨¨§§§§¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨§§§§¨¨§ REALLY DO NOT  LIKE, AND  THERE  WILL BE ¨¨¨§§¨¨§§¨
§§¨¨§§¨¨¨¨   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   §§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§¨ ATTACKS  WITH  RANDOM  THINGS   THAT   I §¨¨§§§§§§¨
§§§§§§¨¨¨¨ HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A ¨¨¨¨§§§§¨¨
¨§§§§¨¨§§¨ LONG  TIME I  COULD  NOT SEE  A  CERTAIN §§§¨¨§§¨¨¨
¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨ KIND  OF  LEAF WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS §§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§
¨¨¨¨¨§§§§¨ ... AND I  SHOULD AVOID TO  RUIN ALL THE §¨¨§§§§¨¨¨
§§§§¨¨§§¨¨             SEASONS THIS WAY.            ¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§§
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§§¨¨§§§§§§                    ~                     ¨§¨¨§§§§¨¨
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§§§§¨¨§§§§     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    §§§§¨¨¨¨§§
§§§¨¨¨¨§§§ INCREASED  OR  AT  LEAST THE BURN-INS IN §§§¨¨§§¨¨§
§§¨¨§§¨¨§§ THE  EYES,   AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS ¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§ BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT ¨¨¨§§§§§§¨
§§§§§§§§¨¨ BEFORE.  BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH §§¨¨§§§§¨¨
¨§§§§§§¨¨§ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL §¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨
¨¨§§§§¨¨¨¨             THESE THINGS UP.             ¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§§
¨¨¨§§¨¨§§§                                          §¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨
§§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§                     ~                    ¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§§
§¨¨§§§§¨¨§                                          §¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§
¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨ IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES THAT  SHIT, ¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨
§§§¨¨¨¨§§§ WHAT A  LOAD OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" ¨¨¨¨¨§§§§§
§§¨¨§§¨¨§§ CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY ARE §§§§¨¨§§§§
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¨¨§§§§§§¨¨                     ~                    §§¨¨§§¨¨§§
¨¨¨§§§§¨¨¨                                          §¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
§§¨¨§§¨¨§§ IF I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY ¨¨§§§§§§§§
§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨ HOURS, IT WILL NO LONGER BE  DARK WHEN I §¨¨§§§§§§§
¨¨§§§§§§§§ CLOSE   MY  EYES,   NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S ¨¨¨¨§§§§§§
¨¨¨§§§§§§§ THOUGH,  RATHER JUST FIELDS  AND MOTION. §§§¨¨§§§§¨
§§¨¨§§§§§§ NOW AND  THEN I  HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL ¨§¨¨¨¨§§¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨§§§§§    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     ¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨
§§§§¨¨§§§¨  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  §§¨¨¨¨§§§§
§§§¨¨¨¨§¨¨ AND  IT IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME §¨¨§§¨¨§§§
§§¨¨§§¨¨¨§ SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK  IT  HAS TO DO ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§§
§¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.        ¨§§§§§§¨¨§
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