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§§¨¨§§§¨¨¨                    EH                    ¨§¨¨¨¨§¨§§
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§§§§¨§§¨¨¨                     =                    ¨§¨¨§¨¨§¨¨
¨¨¨§§¨§¨¨§                                          §§¨§§¨§§¨§
¨¨§¨§§§¨§§ I    WAS    THINKING   TO   STOP   DOING ¨§§¨§§¨§§§
¨§§§¨¨§§¨§ HALLUCINOGENS  IN  THE  WINTER BECAUSE I §¨§§¨§§¨¨§
§¨¨§¨§¨§§§ DO NOT  KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY  HAVE  BEEN §§¨§§¨§¨§§
§¨§§§§§¨¨§ ANYWAY? I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE ¨§§¨§§§§¨¨
§§¨¨¨¨§¨§§ THEM, THE LAST  FEW TIMES AT  LEAST, AND §¨§§¨¨¨§¨§
¨§¨¨¨§§§¨¨ THERE ARE  PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I §§¨§¨¨§§§¨
§§¨¨§¨¨§¨¨ REALLY DO NOT  LIKE,  AND  THERE WILL BE ¨§§§¨§¨¨§¨
¨§¨§§¨§§¨§   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   §¨¨§§§¨§§§
§§§¨§§¨§§§ ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM   THINGS  THAT  I §¨§¨¨§§¨¨§
¨¨§§¨§§¨¨§ HAPPEN  TO SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A §§§¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§¨§§¨§¨§¨ LONG TIME  I  COULD NOT  SEE  A  CERTAIN ¨¨§§§§§§§¨
§§§¨§§§§§¨ KIND  OF  LEAF WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS ¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨
¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨ ...  AND I SHOULD AVOID TO  RUIN ALL THE §§¨¨¨¨¨§§§
¨§¨§¨¨¨§§§             SEASONS THIS WAY.            ¨§¨¨¨¨§¨¨§
§§§§¨¨§¨¨§                                          §§¨¨¨§§¨§§
¨¨¨§¨§§¨§¨                    =                     ¨§¨¨§¨§§¨¨
¨¨§§§¨§§§¨                                          §§¨§§§¨§¨¨
¨§¨¨§§¨¨§¨    HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA     ¨§§¨¨§§§¨¨
§§¨§¨§¨§§¨ INCREASED OR AT LEAST  THE  BURN-INS  IN §¨§¨§¨¨§¨¨
¨§§§§§§¨§§ THE   EYES,   AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF  IS §§§§§¨§§¨§
§¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨ BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT  DO   IT ¨¨¨¨§§¨§§§
§¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§ BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO  MUCH ¨¨¨§¨§§¨¨¨
§¨¨¨§§§§§§ COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED  AND MAKING ALL ¨¨§§§¨§¨¨§
§¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨             THESE THINGS UP.             ¨§¨¨§§§¨§¨
§¨§§¨¨¨¨¨§                                          §§¨§¨¨§§§§
§§¨§¨¨¨¨§¨                    =                     ¨§§§¨§¨¨¨¨
¨§§§¨¨¨§§¨                                          §¨¨§§§¨¨¨§
§¨¨§¨¨§¨§¨ IT  COMES TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, §¨§¨¨§¨¨§§
§¨§§¨§§§§¨ WHAT A  LOAD OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" §§§¨§§¨§¨¨
§§¨§§¨¨¨§¨ CONSISTS OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE ¨¨§§¨§§§¨§
¨§§¨§¨¨§§§                                          ¨§¨§§¨¨§§¨
§¨§§§¨§¨¨§                    =                     §§§¨§¨§¨§¨
§§¨¨§§§¨§§                                          ¨¨§§§§§§§§
¨§¨§¨¨§§¨§ IF  I  DO  NOT SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY ¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
§§§§¨§¨§§§ HOURS,  IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I §§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨§§§§¨¨¨ CLOSE   MY   EYES,  NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S ¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§
¨¨§¨¨¨§¨¨§ THOUGH, RATHER  JUST FIELDS AND  MOTION. §§¨¨¨¨¨¨§§
¨§§¨¨§§¨§¨ NOW  AND THEN I HEAR  THIS SOUND (A REAL ¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨§
§¨§¨§¨§§§§    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     §§¨¨¨¨§§§§
§§§§§§¨¨¨§  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  ¨§¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨§¨ AND IT  IS  ALWAYS UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME §§¨¨§§¨¨¨§
¨¨¨¨§§¨§§¨ SO STRESSFUL, BUT I  THINK IT  HAS TO DO ¨§¨§¨§¨¨§§
¨¨¨§¨§§¨§§        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.         §§§§§§¨§¨§
¨¨§§§¨§§¨¨                                          ¨¨¨¨¨§§§§§
¨§¨¨§§¨§¨¨                                          ¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨§
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