Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think It  Has To  Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.