Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not  Know How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not Like, And  There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.