Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The  Last Few Times At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do  Not  Like, And There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A  Load Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.