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,.«*^*@### i was thinking to stop doing ###@*^*«.,
,,,,.*^*@# hallucinogens in the winter because i #@*^*.,,,,
,,,,.«««^@ do not know how useful they have been @^«««.,,,,
,.««*^^*## anyway? i get so tense when i take ##*^^*««.,
,.«*^*@@## them, the last few times at least, and ##@@*^*«.,
,,,..**^^@ there are plenty of side effects that i @^^**..,,,
,,,,,.««^@ really do not like, and there will be @^««.,,,,,
,.«*^*@### associations with these mini-anxiety ###@*^*«.,
,...*^*@## attacks with random things that i ##@*^*...,
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,.«*^*@### long time i could not see a certain ###@*^*«.,
,...«****# kind of leaf without getting anxious #****«...,
,.«*^*@### ... and i should avoid to ruin all the ###@*^*«.,
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,,,,..*^*@ increased or at least the burn-ins in @*^*..,,,,
,.«*^**@## the eyes, and sometimes stuff is ##@**^*«.,
,.«*^*@### breathing now, they did not do it ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@@## before. but maybe i just drank too much ##@@*^*«.,
,,.....«^@ coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all @^«.....,,
,.«*^*@### these things up. ###@*^*«.,
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,.«*^*@### it comes to me sometimes that shit, ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@### what a load of concepts this "reality" ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@### consists of, and how vague they are ###@*^*«.,
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,.«*^*@### if i do not sleep for about twenty ###@*^*«.,
,,,,,,««^@ hours, it will no longer be dark when i @^««,,,,,,
,.«*^^^@@# close my eyes, not actually cev's #@@^^^*«.,
,.«*^*@### though, rather just fields and motion. ###@*^*«.,
,,,.«««**@ now and then i hear this sound (a real @**«««.,,,
,.«*^*@### sound (i think)), resembling some ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@### "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@### and it is always unpleasant, i become ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@### so stressful, but i think it has to do ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^^***@ with the novelty. i hope. @***^^*«.,
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