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.......... i was thinking to stop doing ..........
.......... hallucinogens in the winter because i ..........
........., do not know how useful they have been ,.........
........,= anyway? i get so tense when i take =,........
.......,=: them, the last few times at least, and :=,.......
......,=:^ there are plenty of side effects that i ^:=,......
.....,=:^$ really do not like, and there will be $^:=,.....
....,=:^$@ associations with these mini-anxiety @$^:=,....
...,=:^$@¶ attacks with random things that i ¶@$^:=,...
..,=:^$@¶# happen to see... for example, for a #¶@$^:=,..
.,=:^$@¶## long time i could not see a certain ##¶@$^:=,.
..,=:^$@¶# kind of leaf without getting anxious #¶@$^:=,..
...,=:^$@¶ ... and i should avoid to ruin all the ¶@$^:=,...
....,=:^$@ seasons this way. @$^:=,....
.....,=:^$ $^:=,.....
......,=:^ = ^:=,......
.......,=: :=,.......
........,= hmm, recently my visual phenomena =,........
........., increased or at least the burn-ins in ,.........
.......... the eyes, and sometimes stuff is ..........
.......... breathing now, they did not do it ..........
.......... before. but maybe i just drank too much ..........
.......... coffee. maybe i'm scared and making all ..........
.......... these things up. ..........
.......... ..........
.......... = ..........
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........,= it comes to me sometimes that shit, =,........
.......,=: what a load of concepts this "reality" :=,.......
......,=:^ consists of, and how vague they are ^:=,......
.....,=:^$ $^:=,.....
....,=:^$@ = @$^:=,....
...,=:^$@¶ ¶@$^:=,...
..,=:^$@¶# if i do not sleep for about twenty #¶@$^:=,..
.,=:^$@¶## hours, it will no longer be dark when i ##¶@$^:=,.
..,=:^$@¶# close my eyes, not actually cev's #¶@$^:=,..
...,=:^$@¶ though, rather just fields and motion. ¶@$^:=,...
....,=:^$@ now and then i hear this sound (a real @$^:=,....
.....,=:^$ sound (i think)), resembling some $^:=,.....
......,=:^ "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so. ^:=,......
.......,=: and it is always unpleasant, i become :=,.......
........,= so stressful, but i think it has to do =,........
........., with the novelty. i hope. ,.........
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