Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really  Do  Not Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See  A Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To Ruin  All  The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think  It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.