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,.«*^*@### i    was   thinking   to   stop    doing ###@*^*«.,
,,,,.*^*@# hallucinogens  in the winter  because  i #@*^*.,,,,
,,,,.«««^@ do not know how  useful  they  have been @^«««.,,,,
,.««*^^*## anyway?  i  get  so  tense  when  i take ##*^^*««.,
,.«*^*@@## them, the last few  times at least,  and ##@@*^*«.,
,,,..**^^@ there are plenty of side effects  that i @^^**..,,,
,,,,,.««^@ really do  not like, and  there  will be @^««.,,,,,
,.«*^*@###   associations with these mini-anxiety   ###@*^*«.,
,...*^*@## attacks   with   random  things  that  i ##@*^*...,
,.«*^***@# happen  to  see... for  example,  for  a #@***^*«.,
,.«*^*@### long  time  i  could not  see a  certain ###@*^*«.,
,...«****# kind  of leaf  without  getting  anxious #****«...,
,.«*^*@### ... and i should avoid  to  ruin all the ###@*^*«.,
,.««««^^@@             seasons this way.            @@^^««««.,
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,.«*^*@###     hmm, recently my visual phenomena    ###@*^*«.,
,,,,..*^*@ increased or at  least  the burn-ins  in @*^*..,,,,
,.«*^**@## the   eyes,   and  sometimes   stuff  is ##@**^*«.,
,.«*^*@### breathing  now,  they  did   not  do  it ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@@## before. but maybe i just drank too  much ##@@*^*«.,
,,.....«^@ coffee. maybe i'm scared and making  all @^«.....,,
,.«*^*@###             these things up.             ###@*^*«.,
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,.«*^*@### it  comes  to  me  sometimes that  shit, ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@### what  a load of concepts this  "reality" ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@### consists  of, and  how  vague  they  are ###@*^*«.,
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,.«*^*@### if i  do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty ###@*^*«.,
,,,,,,««^@ hours, it will no longer be dark  when i @^««,,,,,,
,.«*^^^@@# close  my   eyes,  not   actually  cev's #@@^^^*«.,
,.«*^*@### though,  rather  just fields and motion. ###@*^*«.,
,,,.«««**@ now and then i  hear this  sound (a real @**«««.,,,
,.«*^*@###    sound (i think)), resembling some     ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@###  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@### and  it is  always unpleasant,  i become ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^*@### so stressful, but  i think it has to  do ###@*^*«.,
,.«*^^***@         with the novelty. i hope.        @***^^*«.,
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