Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last  Few  Times At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To  Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It  Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I  Think  It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.