Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things  That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then  I Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always  Unpleasant, I Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.