EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS   THINKING    TO   STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO NOT KNOW  HOW  USEFUL THEY HAVE  BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES  AT LEAST,  AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY  OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO NOT LIKE, AND  THERE  WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS  WITH  RANDOM   THINGS  THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE, FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME  I COULD  NOT  SEE  A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF  WITHOUT GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ... AND  I SHOULD AVOID TO RUIN ALL  THE 
             SEASONS THIS WAY.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED  OR  AT LEAST  THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE  EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES   STUFF  IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE  I JUST DRANK TOO MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT  SLEEP  FOR ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO  LONGER BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE  MY  EYES,   NOT   ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER  JUST FIELDS AND MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN I  HEAR THIS SOUND  (A REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND  IT IS  ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT, I BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL,  BUT  I THINK IT HAS TO DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.