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,@,,@,@,@, i   was    thinking    to   stop   doing ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, hallucinogens in  the  winter  because i @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, do not know  how useful  they have  been ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, anyway?  i  get  so tense  when  i  take @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, them, the  last few times at  least, and ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, there are  plenty of side effects that i @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, really do not  like, and  there  will be ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@,   associations with these mini-anxiety   @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, attacks  with   random  things   that  i ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, happen  to  see... for  example,  for  a @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, long  time  i  could  not  see a certain ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, kind of  leaf  without  getting  anxious @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, ... and i should avoid to ruin  all  the ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@,            seasons this way.             @@,@,,@,@@
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,@,@@,@,@,     hmm, recently my visual phenomena    @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, increased or  at least the  burn-ins  in ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, the  eyes,  and   sometimes   stuff   is @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, breathing  now,   they  did  not  do  it ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, before. but maybe i just  drank too much @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, coffee. maybe i'm scared and  making all ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@,             these things up.             @@,@,,@,@@
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,@,@@,@,@, it  comes  to me  sometimes  that  shit, @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, what a  load of concepts  this "reality" ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, consists  of,  and  how  vague  they are @@,@,,@,@@
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,@,@@,@,@, if  i  do  not  sleep for  about  twenty @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, hours, it will no longer be dark when  i ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, close  my  eyes,   not  actually   cev's @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, though, rather  just fields  and motion. ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, now  and then i  hear this sound (a real @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@,     sound (i think)), resembling some    ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@,  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@, and  it is always  unpleasant, i  become ,@,@,@@,,@
,@,@@,@,@, so stressful, but i think it has  to  do @@,@,,@,@@
,@,,@,@,@,         with the novelty. i hope.        ,@,@,@@,,@
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