Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At Least,  And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.