Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do  Not Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid  To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And  Then I Hear This Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful,  But I  Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.