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%\«,,,,,,, i    was    thinking   to   stop   doing ,,,,,,,«\%
\«,,,,,,,, hallucinogens  in  the winter  because i ,,,,,,,,«\
«,,,,,,,,, do not  know how  useful  they have been ,,,,,,,,,«
,,,,,,,,,, anyway?  i  get  so tense  when  i  take ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, them,  the last few  times at least, and ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, there are plenty of side  effects that i ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, really do  not  like, and  there will be ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,,   associations with these mini-anxiety   ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, attacks  with   random   things  that  i ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, happen  to  see...  for  example,  for a ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, long  time  i  could not  see a  certain ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, kind  of  leaf  without  getting anxious ,,,,,,,,,,
«,,,,,,,,, ... and i  should  avoid to ruin all the ,,,,,,,,,«
\«,,,,,,,,            seasons this way.             ,,,,,,,,«\
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##@#*%\«,, the   eyes,   and   sometimes  stuff  is ,,«\%*#@##
#@#*%\«,,, breathing  now,  they   did  not  do  it ,,,«\%*#@#
@#*%\«,,,, before. but maybe i just drank  too much ,,,,«\%*#@
#*%\«,,,,, coffee. maybe i'm  scared and making all ,,,,,«\%*#
*%\«,,,,,,             these things up.             ,,,,,,«\%*
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,,,,,,,,,, it  comes  to me  sometimes  that  shit, ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, what a  load of concepts  this "reality" ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, consists  of,  and how  vague  they  are ,,,,,,,,,,
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,,,,,,,,,, if  i do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, hours,  it will no longer be dark when i ,,,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, close  my   eyes,   not  actually  cev's ,,,,,,,,,,
«,,,,,,,,, though, rather  just  fields and motion. ,,,,,,,,,«
\«,,,,,,,, now and then i  hear this  sound (a real ,,,,,,,,«\
%\«,,,,,,,    sound (i think)), resembling some     ,,,,,,,«\%
*%\«,,,,,,  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ,,,,,,«\%*
#*%\«,,,,, and  it is always  unpleasant, i  become ,,,,,«\%*#
@#*%\«,,,, so  stressful, but i  think it has to do ,,,,«\%*#@
#@#*%\«,,,         with the novelty. i hope.        ,,,«\%*#@#
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