Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not  Know How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like,  And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And  Then I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.