Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not  Know How  Useful They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times At  Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side  Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I  Should  Avoid To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours,  It Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,  Not   Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.