Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or  At Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And  Then I Hear This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think  It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.