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@,@@,@,,@, i    was    thinking   to   stop   doing @@@,@,@,@,
@@,@@@,@@, hallucinogens in  the  winter because  i ,,@@@@@@@@
,@@,,@@,@@ do not  know how  useful they have  been ,@,,,,,,,,
@,@,@,@@,@ anyway?  i  get  so  tense  when  i take @@,,,,,,,,
@@@@@@,@@, them, the last few  times at  least, and ,@,,,,,,,@
,,,,,@@,@, there  are plenty of side effects that i @@,,,,,,@,
,,,,@,@@@, really  do  not like, and there will  be ,@,,,,,@@,
,,,@@@,,@,   associations with these mini-anxiety   @@,,,,@,@,
,,@,,@,@@, attacks  with  random   things  that   i ,@,,,@@@@,
,@@,@@@,@@ happen  to  see...  for example,  for  a @@,,@,,,@,
@,@@,,@@,, long time i  could  not  see  a  certain ,@,@@,,@@,
@@,@,@,@,, kind  of  leaf without  getting  anxious @@@,@,@,@@
,@@@@@@@,@ ... and i should  avoid  to ruin all the ,,@@@@@@,,
@,,,,,,@@@            seasons this way.             ,@,,,,,@,,
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@,,@@@@@@,    hmm, recently my visual phenomena     ,@,@,,@@,,
@,@,,,,,@, increased or at  least  the burn-ins  in @@@@,@,@,@
@@@,,,,@@@ the  eyes,   and   sometimes  stuff   is ,,,@@@@@@,
,,@,,,@,,, breathing   now,  they  did  not  do  it ,,@,,,,,@@
,@@,,@@,,, before. but maybe i just  drank too much ,@@,,,,@,@
@,@,@,@,,@ coffee. maybe  i'm scared and making all @,@,,,@@@@
@@@@@@@,@,             these things up.             @@@,,@,,,,
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,,,@,@,,,@ it  comes  to  me sometimes  that  shit, @,@,,@@@@@
,,@@@@,,@@ what  a load of concepts this  "reality" @@@,@,,,,@
,@,,,@,@,@ consists  of, and  how  vague  they  are ,,@@@,,,@@
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,,,@,,,@,@ if  i do  not  sleep  for  about  twenty @,@@,@,@@@
,,@@,,@@@@ hours, it  will no longer be dark when i @@,@@@@,,@
,@,@,@,,,, close  my   eyes,   not  actually  cev's ,@@,,,@,@@
@@@@@@,,,@ though, rather  just  fields and motion. @,@,,@@@,@
,,,,,@,,@, now  and  then i hear this sound (a real @@@,@,,@@,
,,,,@@,@@,    sound (i think)), resembling some     ,,@@@,@,@,
,,,@,@@,@@  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ,@,,@@@@@,
,,@@@,@@,@ and  it  is always  unpleasant, i become @@,@,,,,@,
,@,,@@,@@@ so  stressful, but i think it has  to do ,@@@,,,@@,
@@,@,@@,,,         with the novelty. i hope.        @,,@,,@,@,
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