Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather  Just FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It  Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.