Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking   To    Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter  Because I 
 Do  Not  Know How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last  Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really  Do Not Like, And  There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And  I Should Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A  Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of, And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful,  But I  Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.