Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not  Know How Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times  At Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased Or  At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before.  But Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes That  Shit, 
 What A  Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just FieldS  And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear This  Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is  Always Unpleasant, I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think  It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.