Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours,  It Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This  Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think  It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.