Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking   To    Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know How  Useful They  Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not Like, And  There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I  Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This Sound  (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think  It Has  To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.