Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In The  Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few  Times At  Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With   Random  Things  That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could Not See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid  To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A  Load Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now  And Then  I Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But I Think  It  Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.