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#@#§&†*~..                    eh                    ..~*†&§#@#
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@§&&*.....                                          .....*&&§@
#@#§&†*~.. i   was    thinking   to    stop   doing ..~*†&§#@#
#&&&&†*~.. hallucinogens  in the  winter  because i ..~*†&&&&#
###§&†*~.. do not know how useful  they  have  been ..~*†&§###
#§†*...... anyway?  i  get  so tense  when  i  take ......*†§#
#@#§&†*~.. them, the last  few  times at least, and ..~*†&§#@#
§&*....... there are plenty of side effects that  i .......*&§
##&*~..... really  do not  like, and  there will be .....~*&##
##&&*~....   associations with these mini-anxiety   ....~*&&##
#@#§&†*~.. attacks   with  random  things   that  i ..~*†&§#@#
#@#§&†*~.. happen  to  see... for  example,  for  a ..~*†&§#@#
###§&†*~.. long  time  i  could  not  see a certain ..~*†&§###
#@#§&†*~.. kind of  leaf  without  getting  anxious ..~*†&§#@#
#@#§&†*~.. ... and i should avoid  to  ruin all the ..~*†&§#@#
#&&&††*~..            seasons this way.             ..~*††&&&#
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##@#&†*~..     hmm, recently my visual phenomena    ..~*†&#@##
#@#§&†*~.. increased  or at least  the  burn-ins in ..~*†&§#@#
@#&*~~.... the  eyes,   and   sometimes   stuff  is ....~~*&#@
#&†*...... breathing  now,  they  did  not  do   it ......*†&#
#@#§&†*~.. before. but maybe i  just drank too much ..~*†&§#@#
§††**~.... coffee. maybe i'm scared and  making all ....~**††§
#@#§&†*~..             these things up.             ..~*†&§#@#
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§§&*~~....                    ~                     ....~~*&§§
§§†~......                                          ......~†§§
###§&†*~.. it  comes to  me  sometimes  that  shit, ..~*†&§###
@#&**..... what a  load of concepts this  "reality" .....**&#@
§††††*.... consists  of,  and how  vague  they  are ....*††††§
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##@#§&*~.. if  i  do  not sleep  for  about  twenty ..~*&§#@##
#@#§&†*~.. hours, it will  no longer be dark when i ..~*†&§#@#
##&**~.... close   my  eyes,  not   actually  cev's ....~**&##
##@§&†*~.. though, rather  just fields  and motion. ..~*†&§@##
#@#§&†*~.. now and  then i  hear this sound (a real ..~*†&§#@#
§§&**.....    sound (i think)), resembling some     .....**&§§
#&*.......  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  .......*&#
§†††*..... and  it is  always unpleasant,  i become .....*†††§
§§†**~.... so stressful, but  i think  it has to do ....~**†§§
##@#§&†~..         with the novelty. i hope.        ..~†&§#@##
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