EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS   THINKING    TO    STOP   DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN THE  WINTER  BECAUSE I 
 DO NOT KNOW  HOW  USEFUL  THEY HAVE BEEN 
 ANYWAY?  I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I TAKE 
 THEM, THE LAST FEW TIMES  AT LEAST,  AND 
 THERE ARE PLENTY OF SIDE  EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO NOT LIKE,  AND  THERE  WILL BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH   RANDOM  THINGS  THAT  I 
 HAPPEN  TO SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR  A 
 LONG  TIME I  COULD  NOT  SEE  A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF LEAF  WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ...  AND I SHOULD  AVOID TO RUIN ALL THE 
            SEASONS THIS WAY.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED  OR  AT LEAST THE BURN-INS  IN 
 THE   EYES,   AND   SOMETIMES  STUFF  IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO  MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M  SCARED AND MAKING ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT COMES  TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A LOAD  OF CONCEPTS THIS  "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY  ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO NOT  SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS, IT WILL NO  LONGER BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE  MY   EYES,   NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH, RATHER JUST  FIELDS  AND MOTION. 
 NOW  AND THEN  I HEAR THIS SOUND (A REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT IS  ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT, I  BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL, BUT I  THINK  IT HAS TO DO 
        WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.