Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of  Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not Like, And There  Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See... For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And  I Should Avoid To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At Least The Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A Load  Of ConceptS  This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not  Sleep  For About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close   My   Eyes,  Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I  Hear  This Sound (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So  Stressful, But I Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.