EH                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   WAS   THINKING    TO   STOP    DOING 
 HALLUCINOGENS  IN THE WINTER  BECAUSE  I 
 DO NOT  KNOW HOW USEFUL THEY  HAVE  BEEN 
 ANYWAY? I  GET  SO  TENSE  WHEN  I  TAKE 
 THEM, THE LAST FEW  TIMES AT  LEAST, AND 
 THERE ARE  PLENTY OF SIDE EFFECTS THAT I 
 REALLY DO NOT LIKE,  AND THERE  WILL  BE 
   ASSOCIATIONS WITH THESE MINI-ANXIETY   
 ATTACKS   WITH  RANDOM  THINGS  THAT   I 
 HAPPEN  TO  SEE...  FOR  EXAMPLE,  FOR A 
 LONG  TIME  I COULD  NOT  SEE  A CERTAIN 
 KIND  OF  LEAF WITHOUT  GETTING  ANXIOUS 
 ...  AND I SHOULD AVOID  TO RUIN ALL THE 
            SEASONS THIS WAY.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
     HMM, RECENTLY MY VISUAL PHENOMENA    
 INCREASED  OR AT  LEAST  THE BURN-INS IN 
 THE  EYES,   AND  SOMETIMES   STUFF   IS 
 BREATHING  NOW,  THEY  DID  NOT   DO  IT 
 BEFORE. BUT MAYBE I JUST DRANK TOO  MUCH 
 COFFEE. MAYBE I'M SCARED AND MAKING  ALL 
             THESE THINGS UP.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IT  COMES TO  ME  SOMETIMES  THAT  SHIT, 
 WHAT A  LOAD OF CONCEPTS  THIS "REALITY" 
 CONSISTS  OF,  AND  HOW  VAGUE  THEY ARE 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 IF  I  DO  NOT SLEEP  FOR  ABOUT  TWENTY 
 HOURS,  IT WILL NO LONGER BE DARK WHEN I 
 CLOSE   MY  EYES,   NOT  ACTUALLY  CEV'S 
 THOUGH,  RATHER JUST FIELDS AND  MOTION. 
 NOW AND THEN I HEAR THIS  SOUND (A  REAL 
    SOUND (I THINK)), RESEMBLING SOME     
  "KNERP" FROM TWENTYFIVE C NBOME OR SO.  
 AND IT  IS ALWAYS  UNPLEASANT,  I BECOME 
 SO STRESSFUL, BUT I THINK IT  HAS TO  DO 
         WITH THE NOVELTY. I HOPE.