Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do  Not Know  How Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do  Not Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random  Things   That   I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased Or  At  Least The  Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared  And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,  Not   Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This Sound  (A Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It  Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.