Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was   Thinking    To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few  Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects  That I 
 Really  Do Not  Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen To  See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time  I  Could  Not See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should  Avoid To Ruin All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank  Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load Of ConceptS  This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours,  It Will No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,  Not   Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now  And Then I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So  Stressful,  But I Think It Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.