Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do  Not Know How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them,  The Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really  Do Not Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With  Random   Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time  I Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The  Eyes,   And  Sometimes   Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did   Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And Making  All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load Of  ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If I  Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close   My  Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear This  Sound  (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It  Is Always Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It Has  To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.