Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To    Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In The  Winter  Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They Have  Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The Last Few Times  At Least,  And 
 There Are Plenty Of Side Effects That  I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And  There Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long Time I  Could  Not  See  A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I  Should Avoid To  Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or  At  Least The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,  And   Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not  Do   It 
 Before. But Maybe I  Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What  A Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer  Be Dark When I 
 Close  My   Eyes,  Not  Actually   Cev'S 
 Though, Rather Just  FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And  Then I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is  Always Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It  Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.