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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                                          ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                                          ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨                    eh                    ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                                          ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                                          ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ i    was   thinking   to    stop   doing ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ hallucinogens in the  winter  because  i ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ do not know  how  useful they  have been ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ anyway? i  get  so  tense  when  i  take ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ them, the last few times at  least,  and ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ there are plenty of side effects that  i ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ really do not  like,  and there will  be ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨   associations with these mini-anxiety   ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ attacks   with  random  things  that   i ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ happen  to see...  for  example,  for  a ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ long  time i  could  not see  a  certain ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ kind of  leaf  without  getting  anxious ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ ...  and i should avoid to ruin all  the ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨            seasons this way.             ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                    ~                     ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨                                          ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨     hmm, recently my visual phenomena    ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ increased or at least  the  burn-ins  in ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ the   eyes,   and  sometimes  stuff   is ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ breathing  now,  they  did  not   do  it ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ before. but maybe i just  drank too much ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ coffee. maybe i'm scared  and making all ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨             these things up.             ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                    ~                     ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨                                          ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ it comes  to  me  sometimes  that  shit, ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ what a load  of concepts this  "reality" ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ consists of,  and  how  vague  they  are ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                    ~                     ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ if  i  do not  sleep  for  about  twenty ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ hours,  it will no longer be dark when i ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ close  my   eyes,  not  actually   cev's ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ though,  rather just fields  and motion. ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ now and  then i hear this sound  (a real ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨     sound (i think)), resembling some    ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨  "knerp" from twentyfive c nbome or so.  ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨ and  it is always  unpleasant, i  become ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨ so  stressful, but i think it  has to do ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
##¨#¨#¨##¨         with the novelty. i hope.        ¨#¨¨#¨#¨#¨
¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                                          ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                                          ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨
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¨#¨#¨#¨¨#¨                                          ¨#¨##¨#¨#¨