Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking   To   Stop    Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They Have  Been 
 Anyway? I  Get  So  Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are  Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like, And  There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random  Things   That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example,  For A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To  Ruin All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At  Least  The Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,  They  Did  Not   Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just  Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe  I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What  A Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark  When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,   Not   Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just FieldS  And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I Hear This Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful, But  I Think It  Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.