Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The  Winter Because I 
 Do  Not  Know How Useful  They Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense  When  I Take 
 Them,  The Last  Few Times At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There Will  Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To See...  For  Example,  For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind  Of  Leaf  Without  Getting Anxious 
 ... And I Should  Avoid  To Ruin All The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The  Eyes,   And   Sometimes   Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But  Maybe I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M  Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What  A Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists Of,  And  How  Vague  They  Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will  No Longer Be Dark When I 
 Close  My  Eyes,  Not   Actually   Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then  I  Hear This Sound (A Real 
    Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some     
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It  Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.