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,,,,,,#### now, usually  i  feel good (maybe?), but ,,,,,##,,#
,####,,### this  time  of confusion also  leads  to ####,,,,,,
,,##,,,,## all  analyzes  ending  in  "useless" - i ###,,#####
,,,,,##,,, was  being bothered  by something  in  a ,#,,,,###,
####,,,,## song  or movie or book,  so i think, how ,,,##,,#,,
,##,,##,,# would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the ,#,,,,,,,,
,,,,,,,,,, purpose of  this  process,  what does it ,,,#######
,######### consist  of...? and through the  process ##,,#####,
,,######## more  and more  pieces falls  off  until #,,,,###,,
#,,#######     i'm standing there with nothing.     ,,##,,#,,#
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###,,##### reductionist hell -                      ##########
##,,,,#### i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ##########
#,,##,,### bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    ##########
,,,,,,,,#, abstract they are, the things, until     ##########
,######,,, they cease to be things at all           #########,
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#,,##,,,,# are we just stacked triangles? there is  ,######,,#
,,,,,,##,, nothing i can do with triangles. they    ,,####,,,,
#####,,,,# can not shelter me in any meaningful     ,,,##,,###
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##,,####,, and when i can't even anchor myself,     ##,,##,,,,
,,,,,##,,, when i am nothing but the question, it   ,,,,,,,##,
####,,,,## feels like it can all slip through my    ######,,,,
,##,,##,,# fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    #####,,##,
,,,,,,,,,, was after that.                          ####,,,,,,
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