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,@,@,@,@,@ now,  usually i feel good (maybe?),  but ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ this  time of  confusion  also  leads to @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ all  analyzes ending  in  "useless"  - i ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ was being  bothered  by  something in  a @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ song or movie or book, so i  think,  how ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ would  i  have  done  it,  what  is  the @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ purpose of  this  process, what does  it ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ consist of...?  and  through the process @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ more  and  more pieces  falls off  until ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@     i'm standing there with nothing.     @@,@,@,@,@
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,@,@,@,@,@ reductionist hell -                      @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ i wan't a bottom floor, a concept        ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ bedrock, but the deeper i go the more    @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ abstract they are, the things, until     ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ they cease to be things at all           @@,@,@,@,@
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,@,@,@,@,@ are we just stacked triangles? there is  @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ nothing i can do with triangles. they    ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ can not shelter me in any meaningful     @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ sense.                                   ,@,@,@,@,@
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,@,@,@,@,@ and when i can't even anchor myself,     ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ when i am nothing but the question, it   @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ feels like it can all slip through my    ,@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ fingers... "whoops", and nothing ever    @@,@,@,@,@
,@,@,@,@,@ was after that.                          ,@,@,@,@,@
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