Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I    Was   Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens In  The  Winter  Because I 
 Do Not Know  How  Useful They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So  Tense When  I  Take 
 Them,  The  Last Few Times At Least, And 
 There  Are Plenty Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do  Not  Like, And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks  With   Random   Things  That  I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long Time  I  Could  Not  See A  Certain 
 Kind Of  Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ...  And I Should Avoid To Ruin  All The 
            Seasons This Way.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
    Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena     
 Increased  Or At Least The  Burn-Ins  In 
 The   Eyes,   And   Sometimes  Stuff  Is 
 Breathing  Now,   They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe I Just Drank Too  Much 
 Coffee. Maybe I'M Scared And  Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes  To  Me  Sometimes  That Shit, 
 What A Load Of  ConceptS This  "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I  Do  Not Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be  Dark When I 
 Close   My  Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though,  Rather Just  FieldS And Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And  It Is Always  Unpleasant, I  Become 
 So  Stressful, But  I Think It Has To Do 
         With The Novelty. I Hope.