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,,,&&&&,,&                  ,,§@§,,                 &&,&,,&,&&
&,,&,,,&,&             ,:/§@@####@@§/:,             &,&&&,&&&,
&&,&&,,&&&         ,,,::«§@ dreams @§«::,,,         &&&,,&&,,&
,,&&,&,&,,             ,:/§@@####@@§/:,             &,,&,&,&,&
&,&,&&&&&,                  ,,§@§,,                 &&,&&&&&&&
,&&&&,,,,&                                          ,,&&,,,,,,
,&,,,&,,,&                    ,:,                   ,,&,&,,,,,
,&&,,&&,,&                 ,§&@#@&§,                &,&&&&,,,,
,&,&,&,&,&                   ,:,                    ,&&,,,&,,,
,&&&&&&&&&                                          &&,&,,&&,,
,&,,,,,,,,         internal visionary state         ,,&&&,&,&,
,&&,,,,,,,                                          &,&,,&&&&&
&&,&,,,,,,            the spirit travels            ,&&&,&,,,,
&,&&&,,,,,                                          &&,,&&&,,,
&&&,,&,,,,             ,:/§@@####@@§/:,             ,,&,&,,&,,
&,,&,&&,,,                    ,«,                   ,,&&&&,&&,
&&,&&&,&,,                                          ,,&,,,&&,&
,,&&,,&&&,                  a cost                  &,&&,,&,&&
&,&,&,&,,&                (anecdote)                ,&&,&,&&&,
&&&&&&&&,&                                          ,&,&&&&,,&
,,,,,,,,&&                    ::                    ,&&&,,,&,&
&,,,,,,,&,                                          ,&,,&,,&&&
,&,,,,,,&& i   wake  suddenly,  and  for  a  second ,&&,&&,&,,
,&&,,,,,&, everything  is completely  calm and dead ,&,&&,&&&,
,&,&,,,,&& silent.  it's  dark,  and  warm,  and  i &&&&,&&,,&
&&&&&,,,&, slowly  start  to  piece   together   my &,,,&&,&,&
,,,,,&,,&&        consciousness and my body.        &&,,&,&&&&
&,,,,&&,&,                                          &,&,&&&,,,
&&,,,&,&&& then  the  fear  hits   me  and  i  feel &&&&&,,&,,
&,&,,&&&,,    acutely sick. something is «wrong«.   &,,,,&,&&,
&&&&,&,,&,                                          &&,,,&&&,&
,,,,&&&,&&                    ,,                    ,,&,,&,,&&
&,,,&,,&&,                                          &,&&,&&,&,
&&,,&&,&,& there are circles  and crosses inscribed &&&,&&,&&&
,,&,&,&&&& all over my vision,  pressing  in, being ,,,&&,&&,,
,,&&&&&,,, almost  hostile. i can feel them squirm, &,,&,&&,&,
,,&,,,,&,,     their internal logic changing and    ,&,&&&,&&&
&,&&,,,&&, grinding trenches in  my mind. it's like ,&&&,,&&,,
&&&,&,,&,& language, sentences i  can't hide  from, ,&,,&,&,&,
&,,&&&,&&& forcefully  transcribed in my mind,  and ,&&,&&&&&&
,&,&,,&&,,           doing damage there.            ,&,&&,,,,,
,&&&&,&,&,                                          &&&&,&,,,,
,&,,,&&&&& then  i  realize i  can't hear  anything ,,,,&&&,,,
,&&,,&,,,,      because there's something there     &,,,&,,&,,
,&,&,&&,,,    already, droning everything out, a    &&,,&&,&&,
,&&&&&,&,, rapid melody,  almost  caustic  in  it's &,&,&,&&,&
&&,,,,&&&,         particular microtonality.        ,&&&&&&,&&
,,&,,,&,,&                                          &&,,,,,&&,
,,&&,,&&,&                    ::                    &,&,,,,&,&
&,&,&,&,&&                                          &&&&,,,&&&
,&&&&&&&&, my  surroundings are entirely calm. it's ,,,,&,,&,,
,&,,,,,,,&              almost mocking.             ,,,,&&,&&,
,&&,,,,,,&                                          ,,,,&,&&,&
&&,&,,,,,& i  feel  helpless,  but  i must  try  to &,,,&&&,&&
,,&&&,,,,& escape. to crawl  on the floor searching ,&,,&,,&&,
,,&,,&,,,& relief, such is  my nature. turning  the &&&,&&,&,&
&,&&,&&,,&     lights on does nothing... getting    &,,&&,&&&&
,&&,&&,&,&  outside does nothing... drinking water  ,&,&,&&,,,
,&,&&,&&&& does noting... but  time  does  -  after &&&&&&,&,,
,&&&,&&,,,     thirty seconds i'm normal again,     &,,,,,&&&,
,&,,&&,&,, doubting anything of  this  happened  in ,&,,,,&,,&
&&&,&,&&&,             the first place.             ,&&,,,&&,&
,,,&&&&,,&                                          &&,&,,&,&&
&,,&,,,&,& my eyes are still tense  though, scared. &,&&&,&&&,
&&,&&,,&&& i   don't    know    what    to    make. &&&,,&&,,&
,,&&,&,&,,                                          &,,&,&,&,&
&,&,&&&&&,              but i'm tired.              &&,&&&&&&&
,&&&&,,,,&                                          ,,&&,,,,,,
,&,,,&,,,&                     ,                    ,,&,&,,,,,
,&&,,&&,,&                 ::«/«::                  &,&&&&,,,,
,&,&,&,&,&                    ,                     ,&&,,,&,,,
,&&&&&&&&&                                          &&,&,,&&,,
,&,,,,,,,, this can happen  if you wander too  far, ,,&&&,&,&,
,&&,,,,,,, i  guess?  i  shouldn't  be so  reckless &,&,,&&&&&
&&,&,,,,,,              when dreaming?              ,&&&,&,,,,
&,&&&,,,,, i  imagine  a prick on the  nose, that's &&,,&&&,,,
&&&,,&,,,, what these are.  like  you do with a cat ,,&,&,,&,,
&,,&,&&,,, who  comes to  close to your sandwich... ,,&&&&,&&,
&&,&&&,&,,                                          ,,&,,,&&,&
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