party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains drawn.  floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as  i 
 start to unzip my pants, she  steps  out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien]  who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times  per second  - they  ask me: "when 
 you said  the  world egg  was your ideal 
 body type,  did  you  mean it"? i answer 
 "not really,  but i can act like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom