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¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨                                          ¨§¨§§§¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨§¨¨                                          ¨§§§¨¨§¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨§§§§¨                                          ¨§¨¨§¨§§¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨§         ^*~~~~~,,,¨  ¨,,,~~~~~*^         §§§¨§§§¨§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§         ^                      ^         §¨¨§§¨¨§§§
§¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§         ^ MIRAGE CLASS GOTH GF ^         ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§§¨¨¨§§§§§         ^                      ^         §§§§§§§§§¨
§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨¨         ^*~~~~~,,,¨  ¨,,,~~~~~*^         §¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§
¨§§§¨§§¨¨¨                                          ¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§
§§¨¨§§¨§¨¨                                          ¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§§¨  I USED TO BE A GOTH, IN MY YOUTH, DOING ¨§¨§¨¨¨¨¨§
§¨§§§§§¨¨§  CRIMES MOSTLY FROM OR IN MY BELOVED AND ¨§§§§¨¨¨¨§
¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨§  TRUSTED CAR, AND SOMETIMES MY MOTHERS   ¨§¨¨¨§¨¨¨§
§§¨§¨¨¨§§§    BARN. WE LIVED JUST OUTSIDE TOWN, A   ¨§§¨¨§§¨¨§
¨¨§§§¨¨§¨¨   GROVE AT THE END OF A DIRT ROAD, AND   §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨¨§¨§§¨  THE BARN WAS PLACED SO YOU COULD JUST   §¨§§§§§§§§
¨§§§¨§§§¨§  MAKE OUT THE SURROUNDING FIELDS THROUGH §§§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨§¨¨§§¨¨§§                THE TREES.                ¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨                                          §¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨
¨§¨§§§§§§§    MY CAR WAS BLACK AND LOUD, BOTH THE   ¨§¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨¨    ENGINE AND THE WAY THE PARTS DIDN'T   §§§§§§§¨¨¨
¨§¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨     REALLY STICK TOGETHER. I TOOK MY     §¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨
¨§§¨§§¨¨¨¨ CRIMEFRIEND FOR RIDES, IN THE DARK, THE  ¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§¨
¨§¨§§¨§¨¨¨   ETERNAL DARK THAT SEEMED TO SURROUND   ¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨§
§§§§¨§§§¨¨  US. SHE SEEMED TO CAST THIS VEIL OVER   §§¨§¨¨¨§§§
¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§¨  EVERYTHING. HER BLACK SKIRT REACHED TO  ¨¨§§§¨¨§¨¨
¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§§   HER KNEES BUT THEN SOMEHOW ALSO BACK   §¨§¨¨§¨§§¨
¨¨¨¨§§§§§¨   AROUND, ENVELOPING ALL MY MEMORIES OF  §§§§¨§§§¨§
§¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨§            OUR TIME TOGETHER.            ¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§§
¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨§                                          ¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§   THERE WAS BLOOD EVERYWHERE. SOMETIMES  ¨¨¨¨§§§§§§
§§¨§§§§§¨§  THE BLOOD WAS HER RED LIPSTICK OR HER   §¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨
§¨§§¨¨¨¨§§  CHECKERED SHIRT. SHE WAS ON TELEVISION. ¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨¨
§§§¨§¨¨¨§¨      WE DID CRIME, AND WE MADE WEIRD     ¨§§¨§¨§¨¨¨
§¨¨§§§¨¨§§  STRUCTURES IN THE BARN, TALL PILLARS OF §§¨§§§§§¨¨
§§¨§¨¨§¨§¨  DARK WOOD, LADDERS AND PLATEAUS, FIRES  ¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨
§¨§§§¨§§§§  AND FAIRY LIGHTS. WE WOULD SLEEP THERE  §¨§¨§¨¨¨§§
¨§§¨¨§§¨¨¨ AND DRINK THERE AND SHE WOULD GO IN THE  ¨§§§§§¨¨§¨
¨§¨§¨§¨§¨¨                TELEVISION.               §§¨¨¨¨§¨§§
§§§§§§§§§¨                                          ¨¨§¨¨¨§§§¨
§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§  AND THEN THE SUN CAME OUT, AND SHE WENT §¨§§¨¨§¨¨§
¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§  AWAY. EVERYTHING CHANGED... I YEARNED,  §§§¨§¨§§¨§
§§§¨¨¨¨¨¨§   AND THE WORLD BECAME DULL AROUND ME.   §¨¨§§§§¨§§
¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨§                                          §§¨§¨¨¨§§¨
¨¨¨§§¨¨¨¨§    I STOPPED DOING CRIME, EXCEPT WHEN    §¨§§§¨¨§¨§
§¨¨§¨§¨¨¨§  NECESSARRY. THINGS SOMEHOW SEEMED LIKE  §§§¨¨§¨§§§
¨§¨§§§§¨¨§  THEY WERE ALLRIGHT, MOULDED IN PLACE,   ¨¨¨§¨§§§¨¨
¨§§§¨¨¨§¨§   AND I LOATHED IT ------ I MISSED HER   ¨¨¨§§§¨¨§¨
¨§¨¨§¨¨§§§                 SO MUCH.                 §¨¨§¨¨§¨§§
§§§¨§§¨§¨¨                                          ¨§¨§§¨§§§¨
§¨¨§§¨§§§¨                                          ¨§§§¨§§¨¨§
¨§¨§¨§§¨¨§            ~~~~~,,¨ ¨,,~~~~~             §§¨¨§§¨§¨§
§§§§§§¨§¨§                                          §¨§¨§¨§§§§
¨¨¨¨¨¨§§§§                                          §§§§§§§¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨  I SEARCHED FOR HER, BUT NOBODY HAD ANY  ¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨    MEMORIES OF HER. NOT SO MUCH OF ME    §¨¨¨¨¨¨§§¨
¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨§¨  EITHER, FROM THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER. ¨§¨¨¨¨¨§¨§
§¨¨¨¨¨§§§§  MY MOTHER SAID I KEPT TO MYSELF IN THE  ¨§§¨¨¨¨§§§
¨§¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨           BARN, OR IN THE CAR.           §§¨§¨¨¨§¨¨
¨§§¨¨¨§§¨¨                                          §¨§§§¨¨§§¨
¨§¨§¨¨§¨§¨     SOMETIMES I COULD STILL SEE HER      §§§¨¨§¨§¨§
§§§§§¨§§§§    FLASHING BY ON THE TV IN THE BARN.    §¨¨§¨§§§§§
¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨¨     EVERYTHING WAS BLACK THEN, FOR A     ¨§¨§§§¨¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨§¨¨  MOMENT. I REMEMBERED HER LAUGH AND KNEW ¨§§§¨¨§¨¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨§§§§¨   WE HAD DONE CRIMES TOGETHER, THAT IT   ¨§¨¨§¨§§¨¨
¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨¨§             HAD BEEN REAL...             §§§¨§§§¨§¨
¨¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§                                          §¨¨§§¨¨§§§
§¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§                                          ¨§¨§¨§¨§¨¨
§§¨¨¨§§§§§            ~~~~~,,¨ ¨,,~~~~~             §§§§§§§§§¨
§¨§¨¨§¨¨¨¨                                          §¨¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§
¨§§§¨§§¨¨¨                                          ¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨§
§§¨¨§§¨§¨¨    I DIED BY GETTING SHOT IN THE HEAD    ¨§§¨¨¨¨¨¨§
¨¨§¨§¨§§§¨  WHILE RAMMING THE FENCE TO A MILITARY   ¨§¨§¨¨¨¨¨§
§¨§§§§§¨¨§   FACILITY. BY THIS TIME THEY HAD BEEN   ¨§§§§¨¨¨¨§
¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨§    CHASING ME FOR DAYS. I LOST CONTROL   ¨§¨¨¨§¨¨¨§
§§¨§¨¨¨§§§   OVER THE CAR, CRASHED IT INTO A ROCK   ¨§§¨¨§§¨¨§
¨¨§§§¨¨§¨¨    WALL AND FLEW OUT THE WINDSHIELD.     §§¨§¨§¨§¨§
§¨§¨¨§¨§§¨                                          §¨§§§§§§§§
¨§§§¨§§§¨§   AND THEN I GOT UP, AND LOOKED AROUND.  §§§¨¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨§¨¨§§¨¨§§   IT WAS DARK, WHERE IT PREVIOUSLY HAD   ¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨¨
¨§§¨§¨§¨§¨    BEEN A BRIGHT DAY. AROUND ME WHERE    §¨¨§§¨¨¨¨¨
¨§¨§§§§§§§   DOZENS OF CRASHED CARS, ALL MY CAR,    ¨§¨§¨§¨¨¨¨
¨§§§¨¨¨¨¨¨              SOME ON FIRE.               §§§§§§§¨¨¨
¨§¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨                                          §¨¨¨¨¨¨§¨¨
¨§§¨§§¨¨¨¨       THE GROUND WAS STICKY, RED.        ¨§¨¨¨¨¨§§¨
¨§¨§§¨§¨¨¨                                          ¨§§¨¨¨¨§¨§
§§§§¨§§§¨¨   AND THEN I REALIZED THAT I KNEW THIS   §§¨§¨¨¨§§§
¨¨¨¨§§¨¨§¨     DARKNESS. I KNEW THE WAY THE SKY     ¨¨§§§¨¨§¨¨
¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§§ TOUCHED THE GROUND. THIS WAS HER DOING!  §¨§¨¨§¨§§¨
¨¨¨¨§§§§§¨              SHE WAS HERE!               §§§§¨§§§¨§
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¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨§                                          ¨¨¨¨§¨§¨§¨
¨§§¨§¨§¨¨§                                          ¨¨¨¨§§§§§§
§§¨§§§§§¨§                                          §¨¨¨§¨¨¨¨¨
§¨§§¨¨¨¨§§                                          ¨§¨¨§§¨¨¨¨