Eh                    
                                          
                                         
                                          
 I   Was    Thinking    To   Stop   Doing 
 Hallucinogens  In  The Winter Because  I 
 Do Not Know  How Useful  They  Have Been 
 Anyway?  I  Get  So Tense  When  I  Take 
 Them, The  Last Few Times  At Least, And 
 There Are Plenty  Of Side Effects That I 
 Really Do Not  Like,  And There  Will Be 
   Associations With These Mini-Anxiety   
 Attacks   With  Random  Things  That   I 
 Happen  To  See...  For  Example, For  A 
 Long  Time I  Could  Not  See  A Certain 
 Kind  Of Leaf  Without  Getting  Anxious 
 ... And I Should Avoid To Ruin  All  The 
             Seasons This Way.            
                                          
                                         
                                          
     Hmm, Recently My Visual Phenomena    
 Increased  Or At Least  The  Burn-Ins In 
 The   Eyes,   And  Sometimes  Stuff   Is 
 Breathing   Now,  They  Did  Not  Do  It 
 Before. But Maybe  I Just Drank Too Much 
 Coffee.  Maybe I'M Scared And Making All 
             These Things Up.             
                                          
                                         
                                          
 It  Comes To  Me  Sometimes  That  Shit, 
 What A  Load  Of ConceptS This "Reality" 
 Consists  Of,  And  How  Vague  They Are 
                                          
                                         
                                          
 If  I Do  Not  Sleep  For  About  Twenty 
 Hours, It Will No Longer Be Dark When  I 
 Close  My   Eyes,   Not  Actually  Cev'S 
 Though, Rather  Just FieldS And  Motion. 
 Now And Then I Hear  This Sound (A  Real 
     Sound (I Think)), Resembling Some    
  "Knerp" From Twentyfive c nbome Or So.  
 And It Is  Always  Unpleasant,  I Become 
 So Stressful,  But I Think It  Has To Do 
        With The Novelty. I Hope.