party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower  curtains  drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage, and  as  i 
 start to unzip my pants, she  steps  out 
 of  the   shower   and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever. what  i  don't 
 know  is  that   this  happens  multiple 
 times per  second  -  they ask me: "when 
 you  said the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body  type,  did you mean it"?  i answer 
 "not really,  but  i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of  the encounter and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom