party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn.  floor full 
 of dirty clothes, of  garbage, and as  i 
 start to unzip my pants,  she steps  out 
 of  the   shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be  contacted   by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would  bestow upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right forever.  what i  don't 
 know  is   that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second - they  ask  me: "when 
 you  said the world egg was  your  ideal 
 body  type, did you  mean  it"? i answer 
 "not really, but i can act  like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of  the encounter  and moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom