party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower  curtains drawn. floor full 
 of dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as  i 
 start to  unzip my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and   pushes  me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i  wish  to   be   contacted   by   some 
 [god, alien] who  would bestow  upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what  i don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per second  -  they  ask me: "when 
 you  said  the world egg  was your ideal 
 body type, did you  mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but i can act  like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter and  moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom