party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of  dirty clothes,  of garbage, and as i 
 start  to unzip  my pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower   and  pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien]  who would bestow  upon me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever.  what i don't 
 know  is  that  this   happens  multiple 
 times  per second - they  ask  me: "when 
 you  said the world egg  was your  ideal 
 body type,  did you  mean  it"? i answer 
 "not really, but i can act  like it  for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory of  the  encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom