party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off, shower curtains  drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes, of garbage,  and as  i 
 start  to  unzip my pants, she steps out 
 of   the  shower  and   pushes   me   to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish  to   be   contacted  by   some 
 [god,  alien] who  would bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything  right forever. what i  don't 
 know  is  that  this  happens   multiple 
 times per second  - they ask  me:  "when 
 you said  the  world egg  was your ideal 
 body type, did you  mean  it"? i  answer 
 "not  really,  but i can act like it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the  encounter and  moved on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom