party,  bathroom,  door  locked,  lights 
 off,  shower curtains drawn. floor  full 
 of dirty clothes,  of  garbage, and as i 
 start  to unzip my  pants, she steps out 
 of   the   shower   and  pushes   me  to 
 theground. 
  
 i   wish   to  be   contacted  by   some 
 [god, alien] who  would  bestow upon  me 
 some  incredible  power  that  will  set 
 everything right  forever. what i  don't 
 know   is  that  this  happens  multiple 
 times  per second - they  ask me:  "when 
 you said the world egg  was  your  ideal 
 body  type, did you mean  it"?  i answer 
 "not really, but  i can act like  it for 
 you,  if  you'd  like".  at  this  point 
 however  they  have  already  erased  my 
 memory  of the encounter  and moved  on. 
 subconsciously,   this   is   where   my 
 sadnesscomesfrom