the     subtle     rebellion      
 as  a  monkey  based  mammal there is an 
 inherited  veil, nested  into  our  very 
 bodies, into the  physical structure  of 
 our   mind:   the   urge    to   forget. 
 the  jungle   we  visit  each  night  is 
 cleared  from  our  minds  eye  at every 
 waking  hour, no doubt to  "protect us". 
 we    don't   want   this    protection! 
 we want  to  listen to  the  signal, not 
 the    carrier    of    waking     life! 
 it's   time   to   rebel   against  this 
 predestination  of  ours.  it's time  to 
 soak  in  the dreamy water,  and  what's 
 more,        to        retain        it! 
        chipping away the darkness        
     we can break through the veil. as    
   always, it begins with a journal. we   
 must write down our nightly projections. 
  this will be awkward at first, since it 
    entails breaking sleep - turning on   
  lights in the dark, taking the time to  
          remember and to write.          
  in order to remember, lie still. don't  
    move. disregard all thoughts of the   
   dream being mundane or meaningless.    
   keep chipping away the darkness: what  
   happened? how? how did i get there?    
  what happened before? and before? and   
   sometimes all we get is a feeling, or  
  some lingering spacial awarness of an   
    alien place, or the notion that it    
             rained just now.             
    write it down. whatever tiny thing.   
          note on tape recorders          
  of course i tried tape recorders. they  
  are much more comfortable as i need not 
  open any eyes, or move very much. but   
  they make studying hard - the dream is  
     inside there, hidden away again.     
  we just change one kind of invisibility 
  for another. the purpose of the book is 
              to lay bare.